Hi Honey,
So good to talk with you. I really do enjoy our talks. You do not know how much I love you. I am sending the enclosed check to help with the phone bill. It isn't much but I hope it helps.
I am hypothermia today with a temp of 95. My speech is slurred and my head is spinning. I have a call into the doctor. I hope he doesn't put me in the hospital.
We are having a snow storm. All schools are closed. The wind is blowing. I can't go out. Tomorrow I start PT at the hospital across the street. They will do ultrasound and then hot packs to my back. It really helped when I was in the hospital.
I am going to see the social worker this afternoon. She comes to help with medicaid. I want to divorce Bob. Right now he pays my insurance premiums and I get my meds with little cost. But, everything is mailed to him. So I feel very trapped. If Aunt Ida's will is for my mom, I plan to move to a nice apartment and they will help with the rent. Most one bedroom apartments start at $300. Right now Bob lives next to me and bugs me all the time. It is very upsetting. People here probably think I am awful being his wife. He embarrasses me. I want to be free of him forever. He is changing for the worst. I can't take much more. Can you understand what I am saying? I wish I could start all over again. I should never have married him in the 1st place, but he was so nice to me. He is terrible now. His language is vulgar. Oh well, live and learn.
So, how is life with Kermon? Has he come around yet? How was your date you talked about, it was the older man?
Someone in here braved the snow and wind and got a gallon of milk. Grandma and Grandpa had to see Aunt Ida's lawyer. I was supposed to see my attorney. Now he will call hopefully about the divorce. I can't wait much longer. You see, when I went to court in December, the refreeze reused to accept the papers because Bob's name was misspelled. So he has to be served papers all over again. He will be furious because he doesn't want a divorce. Yesterday he gave the most gold watch and I took it.
I sure Sandy isn't pregnant. That is not what she needs. Maybe it is just emotional. I'll guess we have to wait to see.
Well, I am out of any good news so I'll close. Your letters and phone calls mean so much to me. Remember I love you dearly.
All my love,
Mommy
This is my mother. She left me when I was just 14 years old. I saw her a few times from teenage through the typical college years (although I didn’t have typical college years) and then she passed away before I married or had children. She was a wonderful woman that I know I would talk to her often if she were alive, but I really never got the chance.
The most current entries are things I would tell her and only her ... because they aren’t meant to be heard, just vented (if she were alive). The majority of this blog are letters she wrote to me (and a few to my sisters) during the years that we were apart.
Friday, February 12, 1988
Thursday, February 4, 1988
Monday, February 1, 1988
February 1, 1988
Dear Betsy,
I am playing one of your tapes now. I listened to them yesterday and they are beautiful. I am home from the hospital. I was in 11 days. I miss the ultrasound and hot packs to my back. It is dreary and raining here and getting colder. I go to my back doctor tomorrow. I will get the treatments on out patient basis at St. Charles. They really help my back. My back is sore now because it is damp.
I lost a lot of weight but have gained back 2# already. My birthday is coming up. I'll be 46. Mom and dad are taking me to Bill Knapp's for 46% off my bill. I have to get my drivers license soon. I hope my eyes pass the test. I do feel better. I am not vomiting. The doctor put me on an antidepressant and it helped but I got the shakes so I didn't take it the past 2 nights. I am no so nervous which I am happy about. I saw Aunt Ida on Saturday. She looks really bad. She responded to me more than anyone so far. She can't talk or mover her right side. I did things to make her more comfortable. Mom told her she had me as her special nurse. She seemed to like that. I bought something for her dry lips.
Saturday I had my thick hair thinned and it feels better. I am going to let it grow long. I hate it now. It is so course and bushy. I bought a good conditioner yesterday. I have to wash it today to make it look better.
I went to church yesterday. I hadn't been in quite a while. I never felt like going. I got up today at 6:30 am and ate and got busy. I love the music I hear of your tapes right now.
My 25th class reunion of Nursing school is the weekend of June 11. It costs $30 a person. I plan to go somehow. I'll have to prop my feet and legs up. I have lived in this apartment for one year and my pictures still aren't up. I need 2 room darkening shades also.
My mom has Aunt Ida's power of attorney. I guess the nursing home gets all Aunt Ida's money and house. Mom wants to sell her car. The one bedroom outfit is mine because Grandpa Deakin gave it to me. I'd like her big TV. If only they would give you kids the furniture and things. I know Sandy and Mark could use it. Maybe, you, Kirstie, Sandy and Mark could come and unload my storage cage and get the furniture some weekend soon. Think about it. There is a lot for all!!! and free!!!
I haven't heard from Sandy lately. I hope all is well. I bet Markel gets prettier every day. I would love to move to VA and be around all of you. I could watch Markel grow. Who knows, you could get married and have a baby.
I drink Shakley's meal shakes between meals. I put vanilla in them and use the vanilla meal shake.
I hope all is well. Write me soon. I love to hear from you and appreciate your letters.
Remember, honey, I love you very much. I'd love to see you. Come visit me. You could stay with me as I have a sofa bed. Think about it.
What is happening with Kermon? Write.
Love and kisses.
All my love,
Mom
The music is so pretty. Thanks!
I am playing one of your tapes now. I listened to them yesterday and they are beautiful. I am home from the hospital. I was in 11 days. I miss the ultrasound and hot packs to my back. It is dreary and raining here and getting colder. I go to my back doctor tomorrow. I will get the treatments on out patient basis at St. Charles. They really help my back. My back is sore now because it is damp.
I lost a lot of weight but have gained back 2# already. My birthday is coming up. I'll be 46. Mom and dad are taking me to Bill Knapp's for 46% off my bill. I have to get my drivers license soon. I hope my eyes pass the test. I do feel better. I am not vomiting. The doctor put me on an antidepressant and it helped but I got the shakes so I didn't take it the past 2 nights. I am no so nervous which I am happy about. I saw Aunt Ida on Saturday. She looks really bad. She responded to me more than anyone so far. She can't talk or mover her right side. I did things to make her more comfortable. Mom told her she had me as her special nurse. She seemed to like that. I bought something for her dry lips.
Saturday I had my thick hair thinned and it feels better. I am going to let it grow long. I hate it now. It is so course and bushy. I bought a good conditioner yesterday. I have to wash it today to make it look better.
I went to church yesterday. I hadn't been in quite a while. I never felt like going. I got up today at 6:30 am and ate and got busy. I love the music I hear of your tapes right now.
My 25th class reunion of Nursing school is the weekend of June 11. It costs $30 a person. I plan to go somehow. I'll have to prop my feet and legs up. I have lived in this apartment for one year and my pictures still aren't up. I need 2 room darkening shades also.
My mom has Aunt Ida's power of attorney. I guess the nursing home gets all Aunt Ida's money and house. Mom wants to sell her car. The one bedroom outfit is mine because Grandpa Deakin gave it to me. I'd like her big TV. If only they would give you kids the furniture and things. I know Sandy and Mark could use it. Maybe, you, Kirstie, Sandy and Mark could come and unload my storage cage and get the furniture some weekend soon. Think about it. There is a lot for all!!! and free!!!
I haven't heard from Sandy lately. I hope all is well. I bet Markel gets prettier every day. I would love to move to VA and be around all of you. I could watch Markel grow. Who knows, you could get married and have a baby.
I drink Shakley's meal shakes between meals. I put vanilla in them and use the vanilla meal shake.
I hope all is well. Write me soon. I love to hear from you and appreciate your letters.
Remember, honey, I love you very much. I'd love to see you. Come visit me. You could stay with me as I have a sofa bed. Think about it.
What is happening with Kermon? Write.
Love and kisses.
All my love,
Mom
The music is so pretty. Thanks!
Monday, January 25, 1988
January 25, 1988
Dear Betsy,
I got your three letters. I am still in St. Charles Hospital. They are studying my feet and legs. I go to physical therapy 2x a day for my back. They use hot packs and ultra sound heat treatments. It helps a lot. I am still vomiting my meals and they don't know why but plan to send me home soon.
I think it would be a great plan and idea to move to VA. I am sure they have low income housing in Reston. Then I would be with all of you and Mark and Markel. Believe this - even your grandma thinks it is a good idea!! She says she and Grandpa are getting old and may die at any time. I have nothing in Toledo.
Aunt Ida will soon be leaving Toledo Hospital after her stroke and go to a nursing home. My mother has her power of attorney. She plans to sell her car and then the house. I have bot been to see her. She listens when I talk to her on the phone. I have been sick since she has. Mom mom calls me from the hospital so Aunt Ida can hear my voice. She seems to respond to me. She can't talk or use her right side. It is sad. She would have preferred to have died fast. She and I used to talk 3-4x a day and she adored Markel. I miss her a lot.
Honey, I need to be around my children. I get so lonely and depressed. It is hard to live in pain and have Bob living so close to me.
This year marks the 25th class reunion of Toledo Hospital school of nursing. It is on June 11-12 & I pray I can go. There was 44 in our class. Plus your Dad and I would have been married 245 years in November. I wish things could have been different. Grandma and Grandpa will be married 50 years in May. That's a long time.
So what are you really feeling about Kermon? I can imagine it is a difficult time for your life and you have many mixed feelings. I hope everything works out for you.
I have been in the hospital 7 days. I would like to go home but I still am vomiting.
It is snowing hard outside and getting cold so the weather says. We have had a mild winter so far. I don't mind the winter weather (It's 5 above).
Where is Blacksburg? How far from Reston?
So you agree Markel is a doll. I miss her. If I move to VA I can watch her grow. I think you are a good Aunt.
Did you make New Year's Resolution? I didn't but will soon. I have to get my driver's license renewed before my birthday. Do you realize you will be 22 and I will be 46.
Grandma has changed since Aunt Ida and then me have been sick. She is more understanding and even tells me all the times she loves me. She is going to Scotland in April for Eastern Star. She is Grand Representative to Scotland for State of Ohio. She is Secretary of Eastern Stars, etc. She keeps busy.
As long as I live in Toledo Bob will be after me. He helps pass time. He likes to go to expensive places to eat and drink wine. I wish I could find low income housing in VA. Please look into for me. I am sure one of you told me there was low income in Reston. Get my name on a waiting list.
Well, I am out of news. Thanks again for the lovely tapes. I will get lots of use out of them. Pray I can move to VA. I hope I feel better soon.
Take care and write honey.
I love you so much,
All my life,
Mom
I got your three letters. I am still in St. Charles Hospital. They are studying my feet and legs. I go to physical therapy 2x a day for my back. They use hot packs and ultra sound heat treatments. It helps a lot. I am still vomiting my meals and they don't know why but plan to send me home soon.
I think it would be a great plan and idea to move to VA. I am sure they have low income housing in Reston. Then I would be with all of you and Mark and Markel. Believe this - even your grandma thinks it is a good idea!! She says she and Grandpa are getting old and may die at any time. I have nothing in Toledo.
Aunt Ida will soon be leaving Toledo Hospital after her stroke and go to a nursing home. My mother has her power of attorney. She plans to sell her car and then the house. I have bot been to see her. She listens when I talk to her on the phone. I have been sick since she has. Mom mom calls me from the hospital so Aunt Ida can hear my voice. She seems to respond to me. She can't talk or use her right side. It is sad. She would have preferred to have died fast. She and I used to talk 3-4x a day and she adored Markel. I miss her a lot.
Honey, I need to be around my children. I get so lonely and depressed. It is hard to live in pain and have Bob living so close to me.
This year marks the 25th class reunion of Toledo Hospital school of nursing. It is on June 11-12 & I pray I can go. There was 44 in our class. Plus your Dad and I would have been married 245 years in November. I wish things could have been different. Grandma and Grandpa will be married 50 years in May. That's a long time.
So what are you really feeling about Kermon? I can imagine it is a difficult time for your life and you have many mixed feelings. I hope everything works out for you.
I have been in the hospital 7 days. I would like to go home but I still am vomiting.
It is snowing hard outside and getting cold so the weather says. We have had a mild winter so far. I don't mind the winter weather (It's 5 above).
Where is Blacksburg? How far from Reston?
So you agree Markel is a doll. I miss her. If I move to VA I can watch her grow. I think you are a good Aunt.
Did you make New Year's Resolution? I didn't but will soon. I have to get my driver's license renewed before my birthday. Do you realize you will be 22 and I will be 46.
Grandma has changed since Aunt Ida and then me have been sick. She is more understanding and even tells me all the times she loves me. She is going to Scotland in April for Eastern Star. She is Grand Representative to Scotland for State of Ohio. She is Secretary of Eastern Stars, etc. She keeps busy.
As long as I live in Toledo Bob will be after me. He helps pass time. He likes to go to expensive places to eat and drink wine. I wish I could find low income housing in VA. Please look into for me. I am sure one of you told me there was low income in Reston. Get my name on a waiting list.
Well, I am out of news. Thanks again for the lovely tapes. I will get lots of use out of them. Pray I can move to VA. I hope I feel better soon.
Take care and write honey.
I love you so much,
All my life,
Mom
Thursday, January 21, 1988
January 21, 1988
Dear Betsy,
I got the lovely tapes and really do enjoy. I hear you adore Markel. I wish I could see her again.
I have been in St. Charles Hospital 3 days now because I was sick. I was so dehydrated. They called a specialist in to do some testing. I have an upper GI tomorrow plus I had lots of blood tests. They just took the IV out about 10 minutes ago. My wrist was so swollen. I have diarrhea but I have been vomiting a lot at home and a little here. I am eating better. There could be several things wrong but I'll keep you posted.
We have snow flurries today and colder. My room is a private and comfortable. The nurses keep busy. My watch needs a new battery so I have Grandpa's black one.
Aunt Ida had a bad stroke. She can't talk and they took her IV out and she has a tube in her nose to her stomach to feed her. She can't use her right arm. She is on antidepressants but starting to respond a little. She sleeps a lot.
Well, I hope all is well. I am glad you got to see Markel. Who do you think she looks like? She is a cutie but I am her grandma.
Well, I will close. I'll write more later. Write me please. I love you, honey & I miss you.
All my love,
Mom
You'll soon be 22 - I'll be 46
I got the lovely tapes and really do enjoy. I hear you adore Markel. I wish I could see her again.
I have been in St. Charles Hospital 3 days now because I was sick. I was so dehydrated. They called a specialist in to do some testing. I have an upper GI tomorrow plus I had lots of blood tests. They just took the IV out about 10 minutes ago. My wrist was so swollen. I have diarrhea but I have been vomiting a lot at home and a little here. I am eating better. There could be several things wrong but I'll keep you posted.
We have snow flurries today and colder. My room is a private and comfortable. The nurses keep busy. My watch needs a new battery so I have Grandpa's black one.
Aunt Ida had a bad stroke. She can't talk and they took her IV out and she has a tube in her nose to her stomach to feed her. She can't use her right arm. She is on antidepressants but starting to respond a little. She sleeps a lot.
Well, I hope all is well. I am glad you got to see Markel. Who do you think she looks like? She is a cutie but I am her grandma.
Well, I will close. I'll write more later. Write me please. I love you, honey & I miss you.
All my love,
Mom
You'll soon be 22 - I'll be 46
Monday, January 11, 1988
January 11, 1988
Dear Betsy,
I don't think I have written for a while. I am sorry. I got sick with pleurisy and that hurt. But it is gone now.
Sandy wrote the other day. Mark is staying with your dad. I hope he finds work soon. Sandy is worried. He wants Sandy and Markel to go there and she wants to be with him. But she said if he is in the same position he was in Provo, she can't see moving there. I agree with her. He needs a good secure job.
Markel is really growing. She has a cute personality Sandy says. She has rice cereal and fruit now. In 8 days she will be 4 months. That is hard to believe. She was so small when I saw her.
I hate my hair. I first had it cut short and curly permed a year ago. I had it done 2 more times. It is so think but is growing. I am going to let it grow. It is really curly after I wash it. After I sleep on it, it is a mess of fuzz. It's growing especially in the back. I need to get it thinned.
It is pretty and warmer here. Supposed to be in the 40s tomorrow. Have you been so cold like Toledo? We only got a couple inches of snow.
I give B12 shots to a few here and I do BP once a month. People come also extra times for BP etc, but no one pays me. Most have lots more money than me.
I go to the community room for a cup of coffee 2x every morning. I love my coffee. I probably shouldn't drink it. It's hard on the belly. the pill I have to take for my back is really upsetting to it, but I can't get along without it.
By the way, how is Michael? Let me know. I must get this in today's mail so I will close. I miss you. Remember I love you dearly.
Please write.
Are you settled in your new place? I hope so. Have you found my Christmas present?
I love you,
Love,
Mom
I don't think I have written for a while. I am sorry. I got sick with pleurisy and that hurt. But it is gone now.
Sandy wrote the other day. Mark is staying with your dad. I hope he finds work soon. Sandy is worried. He wants Sandy and Markel to go there and she wants to be with him. But she said if he is in the same position he was in Provo, she can't see moving there. I agree with her. He needs a good secure job.
Markel is really growing. She has a cute personality Sandy says. She has rice cereal and fruit now. In 8 days she will be 4 months. That is hard to believe. She was so small when I saw her.
I hate my hair. I first had it cut short and curly permed a year ago. I had it done 2 more times. It is so think but is growing. I am going to let it grow. It is really curly after I wash it. After I sleep on it, it is a mess of fuzz. It's growing especially in the back. I need to get it thinned.
It is pretty and warmer here. Supposed to be in the 40s tomorrow. Have you been so cold like Toledo? We only got a couple inches of snow.
I give B12 shots to a few here and I do BP once a month. People come also extra times for BP etc, but no one pays me. Most have lots more money than me.
I go to the community room for a cup of coffee 2x every morning. I love my coffee. I probably shouldn't drink it. It's hard on the belly. the pill I have to take for my back is really upsetting to it, but I can't get along without it.
By the way, how is Michael? Let me know. I must get this in today's mail so I will close. I miss you. Remember I love you dearly.
Please write.
Are you settled in your new place? I hope so. Have you found my Christmas present?
I love you,
Love,
Mom
Friday, December 25, 1987
December 25, 1987
Dear Betsy,
I hope you have a lovely Christmas. I don't know what I am doing. A lot depends on the weather. I got yours and Kirstie's alike because I thought you were going to elsewhere but really I like what they say.
I have been wrapping presents and I have to get my dad to send the packages. I hope yours makes it in time. I think Markel looks like you did when you were small. I told your dad that she is beautiful and perfect. I hope they have a good Christmas.
Well, I have little news. I love you dearly. I miss you too. I wish we could be together for the Holidays.
I love you,
All my love,
Mom
My Dearest Betsy,
The happiest of memories
The nicest to recall,
Are all the Christmases we shared
When you were very small…
And even though you've grown up now
And time has changed some things,
The years can never change the love
This special greeting brings.
Have a Wonderful Christmas
I love you honey!
All my love,
Mom
I hope you have a lovely Christmas. I don't know what I am doing. A lot depends on the weather. I got yours and Kirstie's alike because I thought you were going to elsewhere but really I like what they say.
I have been wrapping presents and I have to get my dad to send the packages. I hope yours makes it in time. I think Markel looks like you did when you were small. I told your dad that she is beautiful and perfect. I hope they have a good Christmas.
Well, I have little news. I love you dearly. I miss you too. I wish we could be together for the Holidays.
I love you,
All my love,
Mom
My Dearest Betsy,
The happiest of memories
The nicest to recall,
Are all the Christmases we shared
When you were very small…
And even though you've grown up now
And time has changed some things,
The years can never change the love
This special greeting brings.
Have a Wonderful Christmas
I love you honey!
All my love,
Mom
Saturday, December 12, 1987
December 12, 1987
Dear Betsy,
I got your letter yesterday. So you and Kermon are through. I hope your new place is nice. I need your address and phone number. Where shall I send your and Kirstie's Christmas presents? I have no idea where Kirstie lives. I need to write her and I have Christmas cards for you both.
Betsy, I have been really sick. My ulcer is very bad and I have been too sick to do anything. The doctor put me on Zantac and Carafate. I was so weak. I am better today but I am on a very bland diet and I can't eat much at one time. Not even a salad. I don't miss it because I know how sick it would make me.
I drink antacid every 2 hours while I am awake. I had a lot of pain and vomiting of pure acid. These 2 medicines are so helpful. Two days ago I could do nothing and so weak. I have to take iron again. I have lost a few pounds. I think that is an improvement. I was up to 127# and all my belly.
What started the ulcer up again was the new back pills like Motrin and those. It is disalsid and isn't supposed to cause stomach problems. I have to take it so I have to keep the ulcer under control. I have had three bad previous ones that bleed so I know I can't eat chill or taco salad anymore.
I get Markel a darling cloth doll for ages up to 2 years. It is cute and colorful. Next year will be lots of fun buying for her. What did you get her? She is so young for much. My parents got her a teddy bear which says "My First Teddy."
Our weather is cold and windy now. This time of year I get depressed. I can't go anywhere and I miss parties, dancing, etc. I go to bed most nights at 7 pm and stay in bed until 7 am. What a life? I can't even shop at the mall. I can't walk much and they are all so crowded. I don't even have a Christmas tree.
I wish I could see you for Christmas. I miss you so much. Thanks again for the pictures. You are so pretty and beautiful. How is the asthma? I hope better. You know, I pray for you every night. I really do love you.
My parents are coming tomorrow and bringing a few groceries. I had them get a box of cards for Christmas. I am going to wrap all the presents. Then they have to be boxed.
Bob gave me a box with 35 petit fours and they are dark chocolate except for 7 which are white and spell Grandma. Really pretty. He comes to see me but he is grumpy most of the time. His BP is high. I know he doesn't feel well. He wants me to take him places to eat, etc.
Well, I hope and pray you are well and happy. Please write me soon. I miss you. Remember, Betsy, honey, I love you very much.
All my love,
Mom
I got your letter yesterday. So you and Kermon are through. I hope your new place is nice. I need your address and phone number. Where shall I send your and Kirstie's Christmas presents? I have no idea where Kirstie lives. I need to write her and I have Christmas cards for you both.
Betsy, I have been really sick. My ulcer is very bad and I have been too sick to do anything. The doctor put me on Zantac and Carafate. I was so weak. I am better today but I am on a very bland diet and I can't eat much at one time. Not even a salad. I don't miss it because I know how sick it would make me.
I drink antacid every 2 hours while I am awake. I had a lot of pain and vomiting of pure acid. These 2 medicines are so helpful. Two days ago I could do nothing and so weak. I have to take iron again. I have lost a few pounds. I think that is an improvement. I was up to 127# and all my belly.
What started the ulcer up again was the new back pills like Motrin and those. It is disalsid and isn't supposed to cause stomach problems. I have to take it so I have to keep the ulcer under control. I have had three bad previous ones that bleed so I know I can't eat chill or taco salad anymore.
I get Markel a darling cloth doll for ages up to 2 years. It is cute and colorful. Next year will be lots of fun buying for her. What did you get her? She is so young for much. My parents got her a teddy bear which says "My First Teddy."
Our weather is cold and windy now. This time of year I get depressed. I can't go anywhere and I miss parties, dancing, etc. I go to bed most nights at 7 pm and stay in bed until 7 am. What a life? I can't even shop at the mall. I can't walk much and they are all so crowded. I don't even have a Christmas tree.
I wish I could see you for Christmas. I miss you so much. Thanks again for the pictures. You are so pretty and beautiful. How is the asthma? I hope better. You know, I pray for you every night. I really do love you.
My parents are coming tomorrow and bringing a few groceries. I had them get a box of cards for Christmas. I am going to wrap all the presents. Then they have to be boxed.
Bob gave me a box with 35 petit fours and they are dark chocolate except for 7 which are white and spell Grandma. Really pretty. He comes to see me but he is grumpy most of the time. His BP is high. I know he doesn't feel well. He wants me to take him places to eat, etc.
Well, I hope and pray you are well and happy. Please write me soon. I miss you. Remember, Betsy, honey, I love you very much.
All my love,
Mom
Wednesday, December 9, 1987
December 9, 1987
Dear Betsy,
This is not your Christmas card. I have a special one for you. Your present should be at Soapstone. I mailed a box by UPS. My health isn't good and our apartment is a mess. My hip has bursitis and is infected. My ankles and feet are swollen. I miss you but I can't afford to call plus I never know when to call. How is work going?
Our bathroom floor is half soaked with water. The apartment above has the problem and of course, it is a weekend and no one is around. Plus, Bob has no trousers and I needed to laundry them. I took all the stuff down the basement and loaded the wasing machine and put soap in…pushed my buttons and went to put my 75 cents in and discover it is jammed.
Everything is getting to me. I feel like my nerves can't take much more. Bob sleeps so much. I made a good supper but he is still sleeping. In half an hour someone is bring me a cup of coffee from Friendly's. I love coffee and it makes me pee. Yesterday our friends brought boxes of things from Bob's freezer and refrig. She let a turkey, 2 chickens, spare ribs, etc. defrost for 4 days so I had to throw them out. I do have butter and cheese. This really upset me. So this is a depressing letter. I love you and hope things are getting good for you.
I went looking for spaghetti sauce and spaghetti in the storage area in a cabinet and could only find the sauce. So we have eggs Delmonico. It is good but hard on my legs.
Sandy and Kirstie want to come for Christmas but I haven't got the money. I'd love to have them. I am afraid this is going to be a very depressing Christmas. We are poor and life looks gloomy. I miss you so much. My health robbed me of you and your teen years. I raised you but your Dad gets the credit. I am so sorry I got sick and he made me leave and not come in 6 months unless I was better. Well, I wasn't so you all went and Alison to Washington DC.
At least we had this visit this summer and I really loved every minute. You are a wonderful girl.
What is the David situation? What are you doing for Christmas? I hope you have a very nice Christmas. I have you in my thoughts all the time. Bob likes you so much. I am glad. He always wants to know about you.
Well, I guess I will close now and get this in the mail. I hope you are happy and well. Please write me. I miss hearing from you. Remember I love you very much and you are special in my life. I heard "You Light Up My Life" today and cried. I do remember your Installation.
Take care. Write.
All My love,
Mom and Bob
This is not your Christmas card. I have a special one for you. Your present should be at Soapstone. I mailed a box by UPS. My health isn't good and our apartment is a mess. My hip has bursitis and is infected. My ankles and feet are swollen. I miss you but I can't afford to call plus I never know when to call. How is work going?
Our bathroom floor is half soaked with water. The apartment above has the problem and of course, it is a weekend and no one is around. Plus, Bob has no trousers and I needed to laundry them. I took all the stuff down the basement and loaded the wasing machine and put soap in…pushed my buttons and went to put my 75 cents in and discover it is jammed.
Everything is getting to me. I feel like my nerves can't take much more. Bob sleeps so much. I made a good supper but he is still sleeping. In half an hour someone is bring me a cup of coffee from Friendly's. I love coffee and it makes me pee. Yesterday our friends brought boxes of things from Bob's freezer and refrig. She let a turkey, 2 chickens, spare ribs, etc. defrost for 4 days so I had to throw them out. I do have butter and cheese. This really upset me. So this is a depressing letter. I love you and hope things are getting good for you.
I went looking for spaghetti sauce and spaghetti in the storage area in a cabinet and could only find the sauce. So we have eggs Delmonico. It is good but hard on my legs.
Sandy and Kirstie want to come for Christmas but I haven't got the money. I'd love to have them. I am afraid this is going to be a very depressing Christmas. We are poor and life looks gloomy. I miss you so much. My health robbed me of you and your teen years. I raised you but your Dad gets the credit. I am so sorry I got sick and he made me leave and not come in 6 months unless I was better. Well, I wasn't so you all went and Alison to Washington DC.
At least we had this visit this summer and I really loved every minute. You are a wonderful girl.
What is the David situation? What are you doing for Christmas? I hope you have a very nice Christmas. I have you in my thoughts all the time. Bob likes you so much. I am glad. He always wants to know about you.
Well, I guess I will close now and get this in the mail. I hope you are happy and well. Please write me. I miss hearing from you. Remember I love you very much and you are special in my life. I heard "You Light Up My Life" today and cried. I do remember your Installation.
Take care. Write.
All My love,
Mom and Bob
Tuesday, December 1, 1987
December 1, 19t
Dear Betsy,
Today it is raining and snowing at the same time and cold. It isn't sticking. Kelly is even cold.
How was your Thanksgiving? Min was terrible. I saw no one. My parents and Aunt Ida went to a fancy place. The wheater was too cold for me. They never even came to see me. I ate a salad, cottage cheese and spinach. Bob wanted to take me out to eat but it was cold.
Bob and I went to Fisches for soup, salad and fruit bar for $3.29. It was very good. We went on Saturday and I ran a few errands. We got ice cream at a special store. I can't do much when it's so cold or too hot. My feet got hot and hurt really bad. I then did all my laundry and it took 3 1/2 hours and 18 quarters. That room is so hot, it really ruined my feet. Then my electric blanket quit working and I can't get out to get a new twin blue one. The malls are so packed. I can't walk that much anymore. My back is better. My parents actually got my groceries for me and I paid them. I think I made them feel guilty. They don't help me much.
I watch TV all afternoon. I listen to tapes in the morning and read.
I was so depressed Thanksgiving. I could have gone to our community room for free dinner but it was hot and packed and all old people. I don't really belong in here in that respect. I can go get a mug of coffee a couple of times a day (15 cents each). It is a good buy and good coffee. I guess I am the only one in the family that loves coffee. Does Kirstie drink coffee? Your dad didn't and Bob doesn't. I couldn't get up in the morning if I didn't have something hot to drink. I hot hot oatmeal this morning. I made it with milk. I lost 6# but it is coming back. I drink Swiss Miss cocoa and I put marshmallows in it. I made it with 1/2 milk. I have it before I go to bed. Some nights I warm up a cup of eggnog. That's why I gain weight but I don't care.
So how are you honey? What did you do for Thanksgiving? Where are you going or doing for Christmas? Where do I send your present? What about Kirstie? Please give me her address and phone number.
Well, I will close so I can mail it. I love you. I hope you are feeling better by now. Take care of yourself. Write real soon.
All my love,
Mom
I love you, honey
Today it is raining and snowing at the same time and cold. It isn't sticking. Kelly is even cold.
How was your Thanksgiving? Min was terrible. I saw no one. My parents and Aunt Ida went to a fancy place. The wheater was too cold for me. They never even came to see me. I ate a salad, cottage cheese and spinach. Bob wanted to take me out to eat but it was cold.
Bob and I went to Fisches for soup, salad and fruit bar for $3.29. It was very good. We went on Saturday and I ran a few errands. We got ice cream at a special store. I can't do much when it's so cold or too hot. My feet got hot and hurt really bad. I then did all my laundry and it took 3 1/2 hours and 18 quarters. That room is so hot, it really ruined my feet. Then my electric blanket quit working and I can't get out to get a new twin blue one. The malls are so packed. I can't walk that much anymore. My back is better. My parents actually got my groceries for me and I paid them. I think I made them feel guilty. They don't help me much.
I watch TV all afternoon. I listen to tapes in the morning and read.
I was so depressed Thanksgiving. I could have gone to our community room for free dinner but it was hot and packed and all old people. I don't really belong in here in that respect. I can go get a mug of coffee a couple of times a day (15 cents each). It is a good buy and good coffee. I guess I am the only one in the family that loves coffee. Does Kirstie drink coffee? Your dad didn't and Bob doesn't. I couldn't get up in the morning if I didn't have something hot to drink. I hot hot oatmeal this morning. I made it with milk. I lost 6# but it is coming back. I drink Swiss Miss cocoa and I put marshmallows in it. I made it with 1/2 milk. I have it before I go to bed. Some nights I warm up a cup of eggnog. That's why I gain weight but I don't care.
So how are you honey? What did you do for Thanksgiving? Where are you going or doing for Christmas? Where do I send your present? What about Kirstie? Please give me her address and phone number.
Well, I will close so I can mail it. I love you. I hope you are feeling better by now. Take care of yourself. Write real soon.
All my love,
Mom
I love you, honey
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