Dear Betsy,
I am doing better but I fell last night at 4:30. I lost my balance and crashed on the corner of a chair with my chest. I have to have a chest x-ray because it hurts to laugh or cough. I got a good breakfast today. We all get along together. We eat in the dining room, and watch TV. I am going to start some crafts. I saw someone made a little train so I thought I'd make one for Markel. I am still depressed inside but I want to get better. I wish I could live in VA. I need to be around you all. I need a lot of support. I have had a lot of losses in a short time. I never figured I'd have a nervous breakdown. I am in locked doors. I like it. I am leaving better and understanding more. We get a lot of counselling. I hope you can be proud of me for doing this. I wish Sandy and I had talked before I came.
Grandma and Grandpa came for a meeting last night. They were nicer. Maybe they'll understand some day. They are moving and probably won't come tonight. I called Father Brown from St. Andrews Church (Episcopal). He is my friend and is coming to see me today. I hope. He'll bring communion. I think part of my problem (a big part) is Mormon church. It changed me. I don't know my religion right now. I haven't been to church since Bob died. They plan to put me in grieving programs after I get out (support groups). I really miss Bob. He and I shared so many feelings and both of us being handicapped. I really loved him so much and now he is gone. Life has to go on. I live alone and that could be a problem. I need to get out more and do things. I am on new drugs here plus Lithium for depression. I don't feel sad any more but I know I am depressed.
So how are you doing? I had to describe you to everyone here (social worker, therapist, etc) I said Betsy is vivacious, lovely, bubbly, and lovable, Betsy. I do love you so much.
I will close now and hope I can get someone to mail your letter. I love you. I'll get better. I am sure.
Love,
Mom
Thursday, July 21, 1988
Tuesday, July 19, 1988
July 19, 1988
My Dear Betsy,
I thank you so much for caring so much about me. I cam in Mercy Hospital yesterday and I had a terrible night. My head hurts and I was nauseated. It is very busy here. I have to walk a lot and we all eat together. You talk a lot.
I am waiting for my doctors. I had blood work done and breakfast. At 3:30 AM I found out I could of had a sleeping pill. They didn't tell me. I have a nice private room and it is cool. Thank Heavenly Father.
Did I tell you I made Markel the pink dress and panties? I have a blue print to make now. I made the new baby a 2 yard quilt. It was so pretty. Sandy has them.
I called Kirstie and she upset me. She thought I shouldn't take pills and this was no big deal. She is flying me to VA for Christmas. You will be there, not you? I want to see you so much.
I had a nice anointing and blessing last night. I needed it. I am in a Catholic Hospital. They came in to give me Communion this AM but I said I wasn't Catholic (yet).
They check your purse, suitcases, etc and take things away. I used to do this to others and now I am upset.
I really want to go home. I pray I am doing the right thing. Grandma and Grandpa are being helpful. I keep crying but I know you are there for me. Thanks honey. I love you. Well, I can't write longer. Hope you are Okay. Oh, I found a four month supply of Seldane so I'll send it soon. It was never opened by Bob. I am almost the big things and a few extras. Got to get rid of a $1000 Ethan Allen Maple table and chairs. Beautiful. Are you needing one? I am sure Grandma would give it to you.
I love you. I am on a locked ward. Scary. Not any fun.
Write,
Love,
Mom
I thank you so much for caring so much about me. I cam in Mercy Hospital yesterday and I had a terrible night. My head hurts and I was nauseated. It is very busy here. I have to walk a lot and we all eat together. You talk a lot.
I am waiting for my doctors. I had blood work done and breakfast. At 3:30 AM I found out I could of had a sleeping pill. They didn't tell me. I have a nice private room and it is cool. Thank Heavenly Father.
Did I tell you I made Markel the pink dress and panties? I have a blue print to make now. I made the new baby a 2 yard quilt. It was so pretty. Sandy has them.
I called Kirstie and she upset me. She thought I shouldn't take pills and this was no big deal. She is flying me to VA for Christmas. You will be there, not you? I want to see you so much.
I had a nice anointing and blessing last night. I needed it. I am in a Catholic Hospital. They came in to give me Communion this AM but I said I wasn't Catholic (yet).
They check your purse, suitcases, etc and take things away. I used to do this to others and now I am upset.
I really want to go home. I pray I am doing the right thing. Grandma and Grandpa are being helpful. I keep crying but I know you are there for me. Thanks honey. I love you. Well, I can't write longer. Hope you are Okay. Oh, I found a four month supply of Seldane so I'll send it soon. It was never opened by Bob. I am almost the big things and a few extras. Got to get rid of a $1000 Ethan Allen Maple table and chairs. Beautiful. Are you needing one? I am sure Grandma would give it to you.
I love you. I am on a locked ward. Scary. Not any fun.
Write,
Love,
Mom
Tuesday, July 5, 1988
July 5, 1988
Dear Betsy,
Now that you are better I found my bottle of choledyl for you. I needed it 1 1/2 years ago but no more. Did you get your package?
I am going overboard sewing for a darling spoiled grand daughter. I made her the dress and panties and have another cut out. I bought her flannel for PJ's. I bought her beautiful corduroy and peach kettlecloth to match. I am so anxious to sew for her. I hate sewing for myself and I should but Markel and new ones are special. I loved sewing for you girls. If Sandy has a boy I'll have to take a class. I just want her to have a healthy baby.
My feel and ankles are a mess. They are so swollen. I'll probably have to go the doctors today or tomorrow. I have terrible arthritis in my left knee and back. I could barely walk for 1/2 hour. He gave me samples to take and they helped great. Except my feet swelled and they are worse.
I put a Security Deposit down on an apartment in South End where I used to live in 1984. I am busy packing and should be laying down but I got to get it done. It will be nice and not cluttered. I have to get ride of my parents beautiful maple table and chairs. They are Ethan Allen. I need a little table. I could meals at home a lot. I use the microwave and crock pot.
I got up at 1 AM because I couldn't sleep. I hope I can get a nap today.
Isn't this heat awful. They say it will be 100 today. I need to get boxes so I can pack some more. I need smaller ones for canned goods. I just cleaned the cupborads out and now I start all over again. I wish I had the legs and feet to do it all. I hate soaking them in ice water every morning and night.
I just pray I get this apartment. I put my $300 deposit in her mail slot. I'll call today. I am still working on Bob's insurance forms. There is so much to do when someone dies. He had no estate - just me.
I have Veteran headstone to get
Now that you are better I found my bottle of choledyl for you. I needed it 1 1/2 years ago but no more. Did you get your package?
I am going overboard sewing for a darling spoiled grand daughter. I made her the dress and panties and have another cut out. I bought her flannel for PJ's. I bought her beautiful corduroy and peach kettlecloth to match. I am so anxious to sew for her. I hate sewing for myself and I should but Markel and new ones are special. I loved sewing for you girls. If Sandy has a boy I'll have to take a class. I just want her to have a healthy baby.
My feel and ankles are a mess. They are so swollen. I'll probably have to go the doctors today or tomorrow. I have terrible arthritis in my left knee and back. I could barely walk for 1/2 hour. He gave me samples to take and they helped great. Except my feet swelled and they are worse.
I put a Security Deposit down on an apartment in South End where I used to live in 1984. I am busy packing and should be laying down but I got to get it done. It will be nice and not cluttered. I have to get ride of my parents beautiful maple table and chairs. They are Ethan Allen. I need a little table. I could meals at home a lot. I use the microwave and crock pot.
I got up at 1 AM because I couldn't sleep. I hope I can get a nap today.
Isn't this heat awful. They say it will be 100 today. I need to get boxes so I can pack some more. I need smaller ones for canned goods. I just cleaned the cupborads out and now I start all over again. I wish I had the legs and feet to do it all. I hate soaking them in ice water every morning and night.
I just pray I get this apartment. I put my $300 deposit in her mail slot. I'll call today. I am still working on Bob's insurance forms. There is so much to do when someone dies. He had no estate - just me.
I have Veteran headstone to get
Monday, June 27, 1988
June 27, 1988
Dear Betsy,
I am glad you are getting better. Your doctor sounds good. Do you have insurance for office calls? I am so sorry I took my phone off the hook. A friend (so to speak) calls at all hours and disturbs me. All she talks about is her husband who has cancer. I try to listen to help but there is no helping her.
I woke up at 1:30 am and have been up since them because my knees and back were aching so bad. I haven't been taking my arthritis med I am suppose to so I did at 2 AM. That's when I had my breakfast. I have to get my teeth cleaned at 9 AM and have errands to do.
I went to Red Lobster for lunch on Saturday and will have left over today. Grandma and Grandpa write me a check for meals I eat out. Isn't that nice. I cook most my meals and enjoy it.
I will get yours and Sandy's packages to Grandpa. Grandpa will take them to Maumee for me. I am sending Sandy the new baby's quilt and darling pink dress I made. I am proud of myself after all these years of not sewing. Bob bought a beautiful new one and I love it. He was so good to me in lots of ways. He couldn't help it that his brain had such bad blood vessels.
Saturday I get my eyes checked by a good doctor. In order for me to write or read I have to close my left eye. I have a lot of periods of double vision. I must need new glasses. Teeth, eyes,,, shoot my monthly $270 plus car insurance. I no longer have call waiting so I am talking if it is busy. Otherwise I am gone or asleep.
Honey, I love you very much and would love to see you. Christmas is 6 months away but I'll see you for sure. I am really looking forward to a Christmas together.
All my love,
Mom
I am glad you are getting better. Your doctor sounds good. Do you have insurance for office calls? I am so sorry I took my phone off the hook. A friend (so to speak) calls at all hours and disturbs me. All she talks about is her husband who has cancer. I try to listen to help but there is no helping her.
I woke up at 1:30 am and have been up since them because my knees and back were aching so bad. I haven't been taking my arthritis med I am suppose to so I did at 2 AM. That's when I had my breakfast. I have to get my teeth cleaned at 9 AM and have errands to do.
I went to Red Lobster for lunch on Saturday and will have left over today. Grandma and Grandpa write me a check for meals I eat out. Isn't that nice. I cook most my meals and enjoy it.
I will get yours and Sandy's packages to Grandpa. Grandpa will take them to Maumee for me. I am sending Sandy the new baby's quilt and darling pink dress I made. I am proud of myself after all these years of not sewing. Bob bought a beautiful new one and I love it. He was so good to me in lots of ways. He couldn't help it that his brain had such bad blood vessels.
Saturday I get my eyes checked by a good doctor. In order for me to write or read I have to close my left eye. I have a lot of periods of double vision. I must need new glasses. Teeth, eyes,,, shoot my monthly $270 plus car insurance. I no longer have call waiting so I am talking if it is busy. Otherwise I am gone or asleep.
Honey, I love you very much and would love to see you. Christmas is 6 months away but I'll see you for sure. I am really looking forward to a Christmas together.
All my love,
Mom
Tuesday, June 21, 1988
June 21, 1988
Dear Betsy,
I was going to move but if anything happens to Grandpa I'd be in low income housing again. So I am going to have my place painted and some wall paper to cheer it up. I had 19 boxes packed. I figured you were in Reston for Father's Day or I would have called you. I am going to Virginia and stay with Kirstie and Will for Christmas. I'll get to see all of you and I am so excited. It won't bother me to be around Dad and Alison if it doesn't bother them. We have a good relationship. We have three beautiful daughters and almost 2 grand babies. I sew all the time. I am starting a new dress and panties for Markel. If she has a boy, I'll have to take a class. Never sewed for a boy. I sewed for your Dad.
Did you get the Eastern Star pin? When I die, you get my ring. When Grandma dies I get hers. It is so beautiful. They are both healthy. We went to a beautiful $9.95 buffet on Sunday. The stopped and bought germanium's for the graves. They surprised me and got Bob one because he was a step-dad. Before he got so sick he was a kind and gently man. I would never even married him if he wasn't. Betsy, I truly loved Bob. We understood each other's handicaps. My legs are hard to understand and live with. I am learning. Yesterday they were a mess and I went no where. It is supposed to be 95 degrees here. I wish it would rain and break the heat wave.
I scrubbed the bottom of my feet when they were so hot. I had to see the Neurologist in Maumee Thursday morning. I have to get a Dilantin blood level today. It will ruin my legs. I need some things from the fabric store (2 bobbins). Did I tell you I am done with the new babies blanket. I am almost done with Markel's darling pink dress. It has lots of lace. Pretty for summer. I made the panties deeper. I bought her 3 dresses on sale. They are adorable.
So how are you? Working hard I am certain. Still going to school? I know you work hard. How is your love life or are you too busy?
I have shortening of clothes to do and mending. Hate that but I guess I'll have to do it. Don't buy me a nightgown or robe. I have all of Aunt Ida's and they are all new. She saved her good clothes.
Wish I had your ideas on how to decorate this place. I have them but I would value your opinion.
We haven't seen each other in years. You are always welcome. So come and see me. Are you going to Virginia Beach this summer and when? Well, I want this to go in today's mail. I hope you are well and happy and enjoying life. I love you, honey and I miss you so much. Write or call.
All my love,
Mom
I was going to move but if anything happens to Grandpa I'd be in low income housing again. So I am going to have my place painted and some wall paper to cheer it up. I had 19 boxes packed. I figured you were in Reston for Father's Day or I would have called you. I am going to Virginia and stay with Kirstie and Will for Christmas. I'll get to see all of you and I am so excited. It won't bother me to be around Dad and Alison if it doesn't bother them. We have a good relationship. We have three beautiful daughters and almost 2 grand babies. I sew all the time. I am starting a new dress and panties for Markel. If she has a boy, I'll have to take a class. Never sewed for a boy. I sewed for your Dad.
Did you get the Eastern Star pin? When I die, you get my ring. When Grandma dies I get hers. It is so beautiful. They are both healthy. We went to a beautiful $9.95 buffet on Sunday. The stopped and bought germanium's for the graves. They surprised me and got Bob one because he was a step-dad. Before he got so sick he was a kind and gently man. I would never even married him if he wasn't. Betsy, I truly loved Bob. We understood each other's handicaps. My legs are hard to understand and live with. I am learning. Yesterday they were a mess and I went no where. It is supposed to be 95 degrees here. I wish it would rain and break the heat wave.
I scrubbed the bottom of my feet when they were so hot. I had to see the Neurologist in Maumee Thursday morning. I have to get a Dilantin blood level today. It will ruin my legs. I need some things from the fabric store (2 bobbins). Did I tell you I am done with the new babies blanket. I am almost done with Markel's darling pink dress. It has lots of lace. Pretty for summer. I made the panties deeper. I bought her 3 dresses on sale. They are adorable.
So how are you? Working hard I am certain. Still going to school? I know you work hard. How is your love life or are you too busy?
I have shortening of clothes to do and mending. Hate that but I guess I'll have to do it. Don't buy me a nightgown or robe. I have all of Aunt Ida's and they are all new. She saved her good clothes.
Wish I had your ideas on how to decorate this place. I have them but I would value your opinion.
We haven't seen each other in years. You are always welcome. So come and see me. Are you going to Virginia Beach this summer and when? Well, I want this to go in today's mail. I hope you are well and happy and enjoying life. I love you, honey and I miss you so much. Write or call.
All my love,
Mom
Saturday, June 11, 1988
June 11, 1988
Dear Betsy,
How are you, honey? I hope to call you tomorrow. I miss you. It has been so long since I saw you. Do you remember my apartment on Heatherdowns where you came to see me? Well, I am going to move there. Grandma and Grandpa are going to give $200 /month for rent and I pay the rest. I just get it yesterday and can start moving in next Saturday. I will have to get rid of things. This apartment I have now is so cluttered. I have Grandma's beautiful kitchen table and 4 winged back chairs. They cost over $100 are in A one shape. Do you want them? I hate to sell them if you could get them. I have so muc to do and must rest a lot. My feet and legs have been bad.
I am sewing a beautiful pink dress for Markel. I worked on it earlier. I hope it fits. I need her measurements for elastic. I also need a new iron. Something is wrong with mine.
Last night was our 25th class reunion from Toledo Hospital. It was registration and wine and cheese party. It was hard on me. I am the only one handicapped. I am also the only widow. Sad byt true. There was a tea this afternoon but 85 degrees. Tonight is a big dinner. it should be nice. It was good to see people - I haven't seen in years. Time does go by. I miss Bob a lot.
Oh, I am coming to Virginia for Christmas. I want us to ahve Christmas together. Haven't had one since 1979. I am excited. You will come, won't you. Kirstie and Will asked me to come and stay with them. She called me today and asked if I want to be around Dad. I said it was fine. We are friends, etc. He is the father of my three beautiful daughters. We had 18 years together. I get along fine with Alison, too.
I am trying to sketch a tree. It is fun and very creative. I had Saturdays by yourself. There is no soap opera, etc on Saturdays are long days. I am going to church tomorrow. They'll probably fall over. I will go to the 1st ward now. Oh, I will be so glad to leave this neighbor. I'll miss going to the community room 2-3 times a day for coffee. It is well protected but the neighborhood is slum area. I'll be so close to a mall, restaurants, Masonic complex, etc. Church is 5 minutes. It's a 1/2 hour drive one way now.
Aunt Ida had many new nightgowns and robes. I have to shorten them because I can't wear floor length. I have all the gowns I will need for years. I sure go to bed in pretty clothes and I always smell good. I still have to soak my feet in ice cold water every night.
I'll have to be frugal with my money starting now. I was eating out a lot because I missed Bob so much. Yesterday, I cooked four big chicken breasts in the crock pot. They were and are delicious. I made Brussels sprouts and a salad and apricots. Pretty good too.
Are you active in Eastern Stars? I will only be a block from the beautiful Masonic Complex so I could get active and have something to do. I need that.
Are you keeping busy with work and school? I am proud of you!
Grandma and Grandpa are moving to a new but smaller condo. There's up for sale. They will only have one floor - no upstairs or basement. It is in the same area. I'm not supposed to tell anyone. They gave me the 1986 Pontiac they bought a blue mini-van (Dodge caravan). They like it. I rode in it last Sunday. We went for a buffet which was delicious.
My dad finally put my pictures up and now I am moving. I'll let you know when and my address and phone number. I'll even be close to my bank and loads of grocery stores.
Did you get the Eastern Star pin? I hope you like it.
Well, I must go and make myself some more food. I am always hungry.
I guess Mark is working for Coka Cola now. I hope he sticks with a job. He needs to accept responsibility. He talks big but no show. I hope he and Sandy make it. I think she is upset and she is very tired.
Remember I love you honey and I do miss you. Take care. Write or call. It means so much to me.
All my love,
Mom
How are you, honey? I hope to call you tomorrow. I miss you. It has been so long since I saw you. Do you remember my apartment on Heatherdowns where you came to see me? Well, I am going to move there. Grandma and Grandpa are going to give $200 /month for rent and I pay the rest. I just get it yesterday and can start moving in next Saturday. I will have to get rid of things. This apartment I have now is so cluttered. I have Grandma's beautiful kitchen table and 4 winged back chairs. They cost over $100 are in A one shape. Do you want them? I hate to sell them if you could get them. I have so muc to do and must rest a lot. My feet and legs have been bad.
I am sewing a beautiful pink dress for Markel. I worked on it earlier. I hope it fits. I need her measurements for elastic. I also need a new iron. Something is wrong with mine.
Last night was our 25th class reunion from Toledo Hospital. It was registration and wine and cheese party. It was hard on me. I am the only one handicapped. I am also the only widow. Sad byt true. There was a tea this afternoon but 85 degrees. Tonight is a big dinner. it should be nice. It was good to see people - I haven't seen in years. Time does go by. I miss Bob a lot.
Oh, I am coming to Virginia for Christmas. I want us to ahve Christmas together. Haven't had one since 1979. I am excited. You will come, won't you. Kirstie and Will asked me to come and stay with them. She called me today and asked if I want to be around Dad. I said it was fine. We are friends, etc. He is the father of my three beautiful daughters. We had 18 years together. I get along fine with Alison, too.
I am trying to sketch a tree. It is fun and very creative. I had Saturdays by yourself. There is no soap opera, etc on Saturdays are long days. I am going to church tomorrow. They'll probably fall over. I will go to the 1st ward now. Oh, I will be so glad to leave this neighbor. I'll miss going to the community room 2-3 times a day for coffee. It is well protected but the neighborhood is slum area. I'll be so close to a mall, restaurants, Masonic complex, etc. Church is 5 minutes. It's a 1/2 hour drive one way now.
Aunt Ida had many new nightgowns and robes. I have to shorten them because I can't wear floor length. I have all the gowns I will need for years. I sure go to bed in pretty clothes and I always smell good. I still have to soak my feet in ice cold water every night.
I'll have to be frugal with my money starting now. I was eating out a lot because I missed Bob so much. Yesterday, I cooked four big chicken breasts in the crock pot. They were and are delicious. I made Brussels sprouts and a salad and apricots. Pretty good too.
Are you active in Eastern Stars? I will only be a block from the beautiful Masonic Complex so I could get active and have something to do. I need that.
Are you keeping busy with work and school? I am proud of you!
Grandma and Grandpa are moving to a new but smaller condo. There's up for sale. They will only have one floor - no upstairs or basement. It is in the same area. I'm not supposed to tell anyone. They gave me the 1986 Pontiac they bought a blue mini-van (Dodge caravan). They like it. I rode in it last Sunday. We went for a buffet which was delicious.
My dad finally put my pictures up and now I am moving. I'll let you know when and my address and phone number. I'll even be close to my bank and loads of grocery stores.
Did you get the Eastern Star pin? I hope you like it.
Well, I must go and make myself some more food. I am always hungry.
I guess Mark is working for Coka Cola now. I hope he sticks with a job. He needs to accept responsibility. He talks big but no show. I hope he and Sandy make it. I think she is upset and she is very tired.
Remember I love you honey and I do miss you. Take care. Write or call. It means so much to me.
All my love,
Mom
Sunday, May 29, 1988
May 29, 1988
Dear Betsy,
My pen is bad but I am at the Oral Surgeons in the parking lot waiting to get my absessed tooth out. I went to the dentist yesterday and he couldn't pull it so he went me here. This is Sunday. Thank God I'll soon have some relief. After a week I should be okay. Lost my other tooth a month ago. I can't understand why my teeth are going bad.
Grandma and Grandpa are trading in my 1983 Omega and giving me the 1987 Pointiac. It is maroon and a real beauty. I can't wait to get it.
Had my tooth pulled by the oral surgeon and I had to have stitches. I am okay. Cost $50 but at least it is out. I am swollen. I just drank some soup and coffee. I went to Grandma and Grandpa after he pulled the tooth. They gave me money to go and take home a bowl of broccoli soup from Friendly's. I had to put it in the blender but it was very good. I am still hungry. I didn't get to church today. I hope you have good teeth. Take care of them. I have never had trouble until Bob died. I still miss him but it is getting easier. I still wear my wedding ring. He was buried with his on. He always wanted to be. I go to the cemetery a lot. The VA is giving him a Military Marker. I have to pay the setting charge. I am planning to pay for everything (I think). Then you kids won't have to worry about anything. I have $20,000 life insurance and you kids each get 1/3 of my estate. My parents know this.
I had to have a State insurance physical for Bob's insurance to qualify me as being disabled. He and 2 other doctors say I am unfortuntiatly deteriorating in the legs. He said "My dear, I have never seen anyone with so awful many things wrong in one person and yet I have no cancer." Neither did Bob. I pray you kids will be like your dad. I worry about it. I would never married nor had children if I had known of this. It has and will continue to destroy my life. I do the best I can and try very hard to be happy. I get out when I can. I bought my Markel and new one beautiful clothes. Got them all on sale. Three dresses for Markel. Plus I bought blanket material for the new one. Gave me great joy. I am sewing this pink dress for Markel. Hope I can figure it out and it fits. I am reading a good book. I like to read and have a lot of free time. I do sketches, too, for fun. My 2 plants are growing. I don't miss my cat anymore. I am better off. No hair on the toes.
Grandma big night as Grand Rep to Scotland is Tuesday night. I got to go even though it will kill my legs and feet. They are also celebrating with a huge cake. Uncle Dick and Aunt Judy are flying in for it. Rick graduated from Southern Methodist May 21st. Your Aunt Judy is shiny - she is bones. Hard to believe. She diets. I am gaining after losing 18# since Bob died. I gained back 6# so far and feel better. I was down to bones.
That is no good.
Hope you are well. It is 90 degrees here and sunny so I am in with a sore tooth. I may go to church tonight and sacrifice my legs just to kill time. When you are a young widow Saturday and Sunday are very long and boring and nothing on TV. I may go and get a frozen yogurt. I love it. I drink a Shadlees meal shake at bedtime and go and read in bed. Then around 10 or 11 PM I drink a lite beer.
Well, I am out. Remember I love you. I am proud of you. We need to see each other. It has been too long. I can't come this time of year. Wish I could as I have load of free time.
By being declared by these doctors as disabled I'll probably get Bob's insurance for me free forever. What a break. May be a small pension too. God bless Bob. He looked out for me and Betsy, we loved each other as hard to believe. We both were sick and really understood a lot.
Hope you can read this. Write or call. Let me know how you are doing. I love you dearly. Sand is 21 now. Call anytime. I can never get you. Bob's aunt (in her 80s) still writes me and I am grateful.
I hope I can still sew.
Well, I have rambled long enough. If I could only be in the sun and tolerate heat. I'd love our weather.
I love you.
All my love,
Mom
PS: How is school going and your love life? Keep happy for me.
My pen is bad but I am at the Oral Surgeons in the parking lot waiting to get my absessed tooth out. I went to the dentist yesterday and he couldn't pull it so he went me here. This is Sunday. Thank God I'll soon have some relief. After a week I should be okay. Lost my other tooth a month ago. I can't understand why my teeth are going bad.
Grandma and Grandpa are trading in my 1983 Omega and giving me the 1987 Pointiac. It is maroon and a real beauty. I can't wait to get it.
Had my tooth pulled by the oral surgeon and I had to have stitches. I am okay. Cost $50 but at least it is out. I am swollen. I just drank some soup and coffee. I went to Grandma and Grandpa after he pulled the tooth. They gave me money to go and take home a bowl of broccoli soup from Friendly's. I had to put it in the blender but it was very good. I am still hungry. I didn't get to church today. I hope you have good teeth. Take care of them. I have never had trouble until Bob died. I still miss him but it is getting easier. I still wear my wedding ring. He was buried with his on. He always wanted to be. I go to the cemetery a lot. The VA is giving him a Military Marker. I have to pay the setting charge. I am planning to pay for everything (I think). Then you kids won't have to worry about anything. I have $20,000 life insurance and you kids each get 1/3 of my estate. My parents know this.
I had to have a State insurance physical for Bob's insurance to qualify me as being disabled. He and 2 other doctors say I am unfortuntiatly deteriorating in the legs. He said "My dear, I have never seen anyone with so awful many things wrong in one person and yet I have no cancer." Neither did Bob. I pray you kids will be like your dad. I worry about it. I would never married nor had children if I had known of this. It has and will continue to destroy my life. I do the best I can and try very hard to be happy. I get out when I can. I bought my Markel and new one beautiful clothes. Got them all on sale. Three dresses for Markel. Plus I bought blanket material for the new one. Gave me great joy. I am sewing this pink dress for Markel. Hope I can figure it out and it fits. I am reading a good book. I like to read and have a lot of free time. I do sketches, too, for fun. My 2 plants are growing. I don't miss my cat anymore. I am better off. No hair on the toes.
Grandma big night as Grand Rep to Scotland is Tuesday night. I got to go even though it will kill my legs and feet. They are also celebrating with a huge cake. Uncle Dick and Aunt Judy are flying in for it. Rick graduated from Southern Methodist May 21st. Your Aunt Judy is shiny - she is bones. Hard to believe. She diets. I am gaining after losing 18# since Bob died. I gained back 6# so far and feel better. I was down to bones.
That is no good.
Hope you are well. It is 90 degrees here and sunny so I am in with a sore tooth. I may go to church tonight and sacrifice my legs just to kill time. When you are a young widow Saturday and Sunday are very long and boring and nothing on TV. I may go and get a frozen yogurt. I love it. I drink a Shadlees meal shake at bedtime and go and read in bed. Then around 10 or 11 PM I drink a lite beer.
Well, I am out. Remember I love you. I am proud of you. We need to see each other. It has been too long. I can't come this time of year. Wish I could as I have load of free time.
By being declared by these doctors as disabled I'll probably get Bob's insurance for me free forever. What a break. May be a small pension too. God bless Bob. He looked out for me and Betsy, we loved each other as hard to believe. We both were sick and really understood a lot.
Hope you can read this. Write or call. Let me know how you are doing. I love you dearly. Sand is 21 now. Call anytime. I can never get you. Bob's aunt (in her 80s) still writes me and I am grateful.
I hope I can still sew.
Well, I have rambled long enough. If I could only be in the sun and tolerate heat. I'd love our weather.
I love you.
All my love,
Mom
PS: How is school going and your love life? Keep happy for me.
Monday, May 16, 1988
May 16, 1988
Dear Betsy,
I just drove a long way to a place to get a huge piece of pie and coffee. I have already eaten. I am trying to gain some weight. I have lost so much and weigh 113# now. I had a rhubarb pie and I am stuffed. This morning I bought cream colored culottes and a white skirt and different colors in it. I am going to send you Aunt Ida's Eastern Star pin. I hope you want it. I felt she would want you to have it. Grandma and Grandpa left for Dallas today to see Ricky graduate from SMU. I think they are selling their condo and bought a smaller one close by. I went out to see them yesterday. I got my hair cut short and it is so perm burned. I have to have weekly protein treatments. At 1st I hated it, but it really makes me look younger. I have to gain weight soon because I am bones. I am on Vit B12 shots every Friday, and really potent iron pills. I feel really good now. My blood count was really down so I have to eat meat, etc.
I hope you are well. Write or tell me when to call you. I still miss Bob but it is getter better since I feel better. My temp is normal again.
So you are going to summer school. Good for you!! What are you taking and how many hours? What hours do you work? I have called but you are never there. I hope you aren't mad at me.
I run a lot of errands. I may go to the store again today and buy a cake mix and make a yummy cake. I want to eat everything all of a sudden.
May 17
Last night I made a carrot cake. I will give some to a friend. I wish you were here. I really miss you. Are you well and happy? What about Kermon? Any one else?
I still have your little graduation picture on my triple dresser. You are so pretty. Grandma is having a big reception for being Grand Representative to Scotland in Ohio on May 31, 1988 at 7:30. I plan to go. I wish you could be here. Aunt Judy and Uncle Dick are flying in. They are having their 50th wedding anniversary cake. Do you have an Eastern Star pin?
Grandma and Grandpa are trading my car in for a minivan and giving me their neat maroon car. I am happy about that. I don't own any. But I drive theirs and pay all cost and insurance.
Well, I want to get this in the mail. Please write or call me. I love you, honey. Take care. I miss you so much. Come see me.
All my love,
Mom
I just drove a long way to a place to get a huge piece of pie and coffee. I have already eaten. I am trying to gain some weight. I have lost so much and weigh 113# now. I had a rhubarb pie and I am stuffed. This morning I bought cream colored culottes and a white skirt and different colors in it. I am going to send you Aunt Ida's Eastern Star pin. I hope you want it. I felt she would want you to have it. Grandma and Grandpa left for Dallas today to see Ricky graduate from SMU. I think they are selling their condo and bought a smaller one close by. I went out to see them yesterday. I got my hair cut short and it is so perm burned. I have to have weekly protein treatments. At 1st I hated it, but it really makes me look younger. I have to gain weight soon because I am bones. I am on Vit B12 shots every Friday, and really potent iron pills. I feel really good now. My blood count was really down so I have to eat meat, etc.
I hope you are well. Write or tell me when to call you. I still miss Bob but it is getter better since I feel better. My temp is normal again.
So you are going to summer school. Good for you!! What are you taking and how many hours? What hours do you work? I have called but you are never there. I hope you aren't mad at me.
I run a lot of errands. I may go to the store again today and buy a cake mix and make a yummy cake. I want to eat everything all of a sudden.
May 17
Last night I made a carrot cake. I will give some to a friend. I wish you were here. I really miss you. Are you well and happy? What about Kermon? Any one else?
I still have your little graduation picture on my triple dresser. You are so pretty. Grandma is having a big reception for being Grand Representative to Scotland in Ohio on May 31, 1988 at 7:30. I plan to go. I wish you could be here. Aunt Judy and Uncle Dick are flying in. They are having their 50th wedding anniversary cake. Do you have an Eastern Star pin?
Grandma and Grandpa are trading my car in for a minivan and giving me their neat maroon car. I am happy about that. I don't own any. But I drive theirs and pay all cost and insurance.
Well, I want to get this in the mail. Please write or call me. I love you, honey. Take care. I miss you so much. Come see me.
All my love,
Mom
Monday, May 9, 1988
May 9, 1988
Dear Betsy,
It was so good to hear from you. I have been worried about you. I called several times and left messages. So you are working just one job. I got Joni and it is good. It is helping. Kirstie bought me a sketching pad. I am also going to sew for Markel. I bought Simplicity Pattern 7783 for her and lots of material. I am feeling better. My new doctor is really caring about me. I have to get him all my records my hemoglobin (iron) is only 9 grams. It should be 12-14 gm and I take iron. I drink 3 cups of coffee a day which keeps me feeling good and moving. I drink a beer at night. It makes my legs red but helps me sleep.
I had to have my 1st tooth pulled 10 days ago. I went alone and even got the laughing gas and Novacaine. It was a terrible experience. He had to section it and put 2 sutures in. They came out yesterday and it is getting better. I also had a filling fixed. Now, I go back to get them cleaned. He wants to do a root canal which would cost $375 so I had it pulled for $30.
I have a new friend but she just has surgery on her knee and can't go anywhere. We talk on the phone. She is 51 and lives on the 8th floor right above me. We go places together. Now, she can't go.
I sell Shaklee products and drink the meal shake @ bedtime. I love it. It is good for me.
I am pre-shrinking Markel's material. It will be a pink dress and panties. I hope I can sew it okay. I have a new Singer sewing machine and haven't used it except to make a blanket for Markel. I am going to make the new baby one also.
I go to the store for myself. I have stopping crying about Bob. I am trying to fix my apartment up. I finally have my pictures up after 16 months of sitting around. I need a new air conditioner. I need room darkening shades to keep the afternoon sun out. I was going to bed late but today I decided it was better to go to bed early and get up early. It is cool in the mornings and hot in the afternoons. I need 12 hours off my feet at night. I don't sleep all that time.
Well, I must close. I miss you. Remember that your mom loves you. Take care. Write!!! When is a good time to call you? I never know when you are there. I'll write soon again. I am glad your Dad was baptized May 1st. It makes me feel good. I love you, honey!!
All my love,
Mom
I LOVE YOU!!!
It was so good to hear from you. I have been worried about you. I called several times and left messages. So you are working just one job. I got Joni and it is good. It is helping. Kirstie bought me a sketching pad. I am also going to sew for Markel. I bought Simplicity Pattern 7783 for her and lots of material. I am feeling better. My new doctor is really caring about me. I have to get him all my records my hemoglobin (iron) is only 9 grams. It should be 12-14 gm and I take iron. I drink 3 cups of coffee a day which keeps me feeling good and moving. I drink a beer at night. It makes my legs red but helps me sleep.
I had to have my 1st tooth pulled 10 days ago. I went alone and even got the laughing gas and Novacaine. It was a terrible experience. He had to section it and put 2 sutures in. They came out yesterday and it is getting better. I also had a filling fixed. Now, I go back to get them cleaned. He wants to do a root canal which would cost $375 so I had it pulled for $30.
I have a new friend but she just has surgery on her knee and can't go anywhere. We talk on the phone. She is 51 and lives on the 8th floor right above me. We go places together. Now, she can't go.
I sell Shaklee products and drink the meal shake @ bedtime. I love it. It is good for me.
I am pre-shrinking Markel's material. It will be a pink dress and panties. I hope I can sew it okay. I have a new Singer sewing machine and haven't used it except to make a blanket for Markel. I am going to make the new baby one also.
I go to the store for myself. I have stopping crying about Bob. I am trying to fix my apartment up. I finally have my pictures up after 16 months of sitting around. I need a new air conditioner. I need room darkening shades to keep the afternoon sun out. I was going to bed late but today I decided it was better to go to bed early and get up early. It is cool in the mornings and hot in the afternoons. I need 12 hours off my feet at night. I don't sleep all that time.
Well, I must close. I miss you. Remember that your mom loves you. Take care. Write!!! When is a good time to call you? I never know when you are there. I'll write soon again. I am glad your Dad was baptized May 1st. It makes me feel good. I love you, honey!!
All my love,
Mom
I LOVE YOU!!!
Monday, May 2, 1988
May 2, 1988
Dear Betsy,
A lot has happened to me since we talked. I was put in the psych ward to try the drug lithium. I was there for a week. When I cam home, the 2nd day my speech slurred badly. My friend had to call the psychiatrist. He had me stop it.
You know I am moving and my Dad and mom are paying $200 of my rent. I lived here before on Heatherdowns. Yesterday the church was moving me and I drew a blank. I didn't know where it was. I am sure I had another seizure. I am an epileptic. I am living at my new apartment with a bed and 2 chairs. I had to go and get coffee this morning.
I am going to church today. On the psych ward they lock your things up. I made some friends. We all went to see "Short Circuit 2". Cute movie. I have to get out more. I learned that. This is a hard time of year because it is so hot.
I am going back to the old apartment to get some things. I had to get more food. It is hot but I think I'll go and get coffee. My new phone is … I miss you. Are you okay? I started reading "Dr. Fires." I went to Mormon church (everyone was shocked). My hair is so dry and a mess. I don't know what to do with it. Next Saturday the church is going to move everything. Tomorrow I am going to the old apartment to bring things. I'll go early in the morning.
So how are you doing? I hope okay. I would love to see you. When I called Kirstie to tell her I was going on the psych ward, she said, "No big deal mom." I was upset.
I got lots of classes especially on depression. I did very well. I made friends. You have to eat together and go and get your medicines. Everyone was good about my legs. I made a craft too. This is the 1st book I have been able to read in ages. Grandma and Grandpa are bringing me a black and white TV. I've been out all day. It is hot. I'll go out for breakfast tomorrow. At least I am close to lots of things. That is good.
I am going to have brown (2) venetian blinds in my living room window - should be nice. Grandpa supposed to put them up. They are in the process of moving to a one story condo. It is brand new and nice.
Everything we moved got drenched. I have never seen it rain that hard and I was driving alone and couldn't see. Made it! My bed was drenched. The Bishop brought me a mattress I could sleep.
When I got to the hospital, I hit bottom. I cried the 1st day and almost didn't stay. I missed Bob and I'm glad I decided to get help. I have a good psychiatrist (Dr. Torsekar). You'd like him. I am on medicine for depression.
The patients helped each other. I learned I wouldn't go hungry. I didin't mind it but was glad to come home.
Well, I am out of news. Hope you are well and happy. Take care.
All my love,
mom
A lot has happened to me since we talked. I was put in the psych ward to try the drug lithium. I was there for a week. When I cam home, the 2nd day my speech slurred badly. My friend had to call the psychiatrist. He had me stop it.
You know I am moving and my Dad and mom are paying $200 of my rent. I lived here before on Heatherdowns. Yesterday the church was moving me and I drew a blank. I didn't know where it was. I am sure I had another seizure. I am an epileptic. I am living at my new apartment with a bed and 2 chairs. I had to go and get coffee this morning.
I am going to church today. On the psych ward they lock your things up. I made some friends. We all went to see "Short Circuit 2". Cute movie. I have to get out more. I learned that. This is a hard time of year because it is so hot.
I am going back to the old apartment to get some things. I had to get more food. It is hot but I think I'll go and get coffee. My new phone is … I miss you. Are you okay? I started reading "Dr. Fires." I went to Mormon church (everyone was shocked). My hair is so dry and a mess. I don't know what to do with it. Next Saturday the church is going to move everything. Tomorrow I am going to the old apartment to bring things. I'll go early in the morning.
So how are you doing? I hope okay. I would love to see you. When I called Kirstie to tell her I was going on the psych ward, she said, "No big deal mom." I was upset.
I got lots of classes especially on depression. I did very well. I made friends. You have to eat together and go and get your medicines. Everyone was good about my legs. I made a craft too. This is the 1st book I have been able to read in ages. Grandma and Grandpa are bringing me a black and white TV. I've been out all day. It is hot. I'll go out for breakfast tomorrow. At least I am close to lots of things. That is good.
I am going to have brown (2) venetian blinds in my living room window - should be nice. Grandpa supposed to put them up. They are in the process of moving to a one story condo. It is brand new and nice.
Everything we moved got drenched. I have never seen it rain that hard and I was driving alone and couldn't see. Made it! My bed was drenched. The Bishop brought me a mattress I could sleep.
When I got to the hospital, I hit bottom. I cried the 1st day and almost didn't stay. I missed Bob and I'm glad I decided to get help. I have a good psychiatrist (Dr. Torsekar). You'd like him. I am on medicine for depression.
The patients helped each other. I learned I wouldn't go hungry. I didin't mind it but was glad to come home.
Well, I am out of news. Hope you are well and happy. Take care.
All my love,
mom
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