This is my mother. She left me when I was just 14 years old. I saw her a few times from teenage through the typical college years (although I didn’t have typical college years) and then she passed away before I married or had children. She was a wonderful woman that I know I would talk to her often if she were alive, but I really never got the chance.

The most current entries are things I would tell her and only her ... because they aren’t meant to be heard, just vented (if she were alive). The majority of this blog are letters she wrote to me (and a few to my sisters) during the years that we were apart.

Monday, October 27, 1980

Happy Thanksgiving

Dear Betsy and Kirstie,

Hi to my Girls!!  Hope you have a nice Thanksgiving.  I am very thankful for you.  Are you having turkey?  It will seem funny not making you one.  I have to keep my feet up all the time so I guess Mom (Grandma) will cook a turkey.  I couldn't afford one anyway.  Everything costs so much.

Grandpa's birthday is Nov. 26th.  He will be 63 years old.  He looks good.  He will go to Bill Knapp's for his birthday.  They will give him 63% off his dinner.

We are due for snow flurries by tomorrow.  I don't look forward to it.  Sandy is anxious to see it.  It isn't too cold here yet but it will be soon.

On Thanksgiving, please say a blessing and count your blessings and thank your Heavenly Father for them.  Please say your prayers.  Remember I love you both and always will.  Are you happy?  Have a good Thanksgiving.  Take care.  I would call but I can't afford it now.  I love you and miss you.

All my love,
Mommy and Sandy

Wednesday, October 22, 1980

October 22, 1980

Dear Betsy and Kirstie,

Hope you are both well.  Sandy is still sick.  Her temp is 101.8 tonight and this is her fifth week out of school.  She is really tired and her tummy hurts.

Grandma has a birthday, Friday 24th and Grandma Lingel's is the 27th.  Sandy never gets to go out now.

Last night the temperature dropped to 27 degrees and surprised everyone.  It reached a high of 57 degrees today.  I haven't worked in two weeks.  I am going to work part time because I am so tired.  My feet and legs are bad.  I don't know how we'll manage to live but God will have to help.  So much has happened in the way of illness with me and Sandy.  then Grandpa Deakin died so suddenly.  I hope you know and realize how much I miss you and love you both.  Please write me.  I really love you dearly.

All my love,
Mommy

Friday, October 10, 1980

October 10, 1980

Dear Betsy,

I hope you are well and happy.  I am so sorry you couldn't come see me in Toledo.  I really wanted to see you.  It has been seven months now since I saw you.   I had hoped you would write to me.  Sandy has been sick with mono.  She has missed three weeks of school so far.  She can't do her algebra so she may have to drop it.  I work nights now (11-7:30 AM) and it is hard on me because I have trouble sleeping in the day time.  I have thought of looking for another job with less pay and benefits and may do that.

Grandpa Deakin died suddenly without suffering September 27.  It was a shock to us all.  We had to make all the arrangements.  He looked very nice and peaceful.  We had a Masonic Service for him and a Memorial service the next day.  Uncle Dick and Aunt Judy flew here for the funeral service.  So did Aunt Marian, Margaret, Ruth and Murray.  It has been 20 years or more since I saw them.  I rode in the 1st car.  The Eastern Stars had a dinner (luncheon) after our trip to the cemetery.  The family was there.  Sandy couldn't go because of her mono.  Sandy saw the doctor and her liver is enlarged and she has to stay some more and be on a strict low fat diet.  She thinks you look like a model.  So you sew all your clothes.  I am proud of you.  I don't have a machine and miss one.  Sandy still needs clothes.  She has to have a winter coat also.  I work long hours at the hospital.  I do mostly cancer nursing.  It is hard to do but I enjoy the patients and their families.  Well, I will close.  Oh, Mimi got lose and ran away but after two days someone found her five miles from home.  She can't hear anymore and is almost 15 years old.  I think she has diebetes.  I love you dearly.

Love,
Mom