This is my mother. She left me when I was just 14 years old. I saw her a few times from teenage through the typical college years (although I didn’t have typical college years) and then she passed away before I married or had children. She was a wonderful woman that I know I would talk to her often if she were alive, but I really never got the chance.

The most current entries are things I would tell her and only her ... because they aren’t meant to be heard, just vented (if she were alive). The majority of this blog are letters she wrote to me (and a few to my sisters) during the years that we were apart.

Monday, February 28, 1983

February 28, 1983

Dear Betsy,
So much is happening here.  Bob is in critical condition at Toledo Hospital.  He is now in CCU.  That is where I used to work.  I have a hard time getting out to see him.  He just turned bad tonight.  I pray he will get well.
Sandy got a letter from Matt today.  They are going to be friends.  She went on a date to a dance Saturday night with Keith.  She is doing well.  She is over eating and vomitting.  I am worried about her.  She is not happy.  She nearly choked to death Friday night after going to a party and eathing four pieces of pizza, etc.  She can't eat one of anything and stop.  I called Dr. Adler today and he hopes to see her soon.
I write in my journal every night.  I do exercises also.  I have to stay off my feet 12 hours every night and most of the day.  It is a hard way to live but I am slowly learning.
How is school and Rainbow girls?  How come you aren't writing to me?  I miss you and your letters.
Bob's name went on the temple Prayer chain tonight.  We usually go to the Episcopal church.
Our weather is really warm here the past 2 days.  It is like spring.  I wish I could walk like I used to.
Well, I will close.  Remember I love you.  Grandpa, Grandma and Aunt Ida are well.  They are worried about Bob, Sandy and me.

All my love,
Mom

Monday, February 14, 1983

February 14, 1983

Dear Betsy,

It was so very nice to talk with you today.  I am sorry about your feet and knee.  I love the Valentine that you and Kirstie sent me.  I have been in the apartment over 36 days.  I miss you so much.  I love you dearly.  I am so proud to have you as my daughter.  I have no money for rent, etc. for this coming time.  I miss exercising.  Al lthe ascription is hurting my stomach.
Do you have my Columbia Minerva knitting book and bag from the den?  It is the book that had a dashound sweater in it.  I need to knit some slippers.

February 19
I got your letter yesterday and was so happy to get it.  So you wear a 34C.  I am glad for you.  Sorry I couldn't have been with you.
No one reads your letters but me so you can write whatever you want to me.
A friend came and washed my hair today.  I have a trya I had to buy it from a beauty supply store.
People have brought us food because we have no minister.
I am reading "Sayonara" by James Michener.  It is very good.  Religion means a lot to me.  If it weren't for God and my beliefs I don't know how I could even endure all this suffering both physically and mentally.  I miss you so much.  I wish I had a picture of you.
I am glad you are enjoying Rainbows.  Did I tell you the Eastern Star Drill Team sent cards and called it a "birthday card shower"? Plus a lady gave me stationary.
I hope your feet and knee are improving.  I worry about them all the time.  What do you want for your birthday?  I wish I had some money to get you something special.
Prices of groceries are really terrible lately.  Do you drink a lot of milk?  I do now, too.  I am in a wheel chair all the time.  I haven't been anywhere since Jan 10 and then only to come home from the hospital.  I vacuummed the apartment tonight in the wheel chair.  I see very little people.  I can't drive either.  Saves on gas.  My electric bill was terrible for last month.
I have learned to do lots of things from the wheel chair.  My legs have to be up all the time and that makes it difficult to move about.
Well, I must close this letter.  "The Dukes of Hazzard" are on and "Dallas" soon will be.  I read "Joni" and would love to see the movie.  It is here in Toledo now.  It would be good I am sure.
Remember I love you dearly.  Take care and write soon again.  You brighten the day.

All my love,
Mom
Lots of XOXOO