This is my mother. She left me when I was just 14 years old. I saw her a few times from teenage through the typical college years (although I didn’t have typical college years) and then she passed away before I married or had children. She was a wonderful woman that I know I would talk to her often if she were alive, but I really never got the chance.

The most current entries are things I would tell her and only her ... because they aren’t meant to be heard, just vented (if she were alive). The majority of this blog are letters she wrote to me (and a few to my sisters) during the years that we were apart.

Sunday, March 31, 1985

March 31, 1985

Dear Betsy,
I am at Friendly's drinking coffee.  It is 53 degrees and raining.  Tomorrow is to be a high of 30-35 degrees and snow.  I hope it is gone before Sandy comes.  When are you going to come?  I miss you.  My right hip bone and ankle bone have a bad sore on each.  I am on antibiotics now.  I guess I will have to sleep on my other side.  I found a prayer of love…

God is never beyond our reach
He only's a prayer away
Trust Him always, look to His love
He's watching and waiting today.

When trouble comes and things go wrong
And you've reached the end of your road,
Just tie a knot and hang on tight
Look to God for Him there's hope.

When ski's above seem dark and gray
And clouds hold promise of rain
Count your blessings, trust in the Lord
Soon the sun will shine forth.

When day is done and shadows fall
And the night seems dark and long
Worry not then a child of God
Sleep, for soon cometh the dawn.

His love endures forever more
There never was such a friend
Thus He stands so eager to help
With courage right to the end

No, God's never beyond our reach
He's only a prayer away,
Trust Him always, look to His love
He's watching and waiting today.

So how is work?  Are you busy all day long?  What do you do with your evenings and weekends?  I love to hear from you.  I don't have much to write about.  Bob is doing better. I may get my very long hair cut short but I hate to.  It is so coarse and think.
I wish you could see my new wedding rings.  They are so pretty.  I wear my gold band also.
Well, I hope you have a nice Easter.  Will you go to church with someone?  Remember I miss you and love you dearly.

All my love,
Mom

Monday, March 25, 1985

March 25, 1985

Dear Betsy,
I just came from the GYN doctor.  He increased my Estrogen to double it.  I hate pelvic exams.  Now, I am at Fisches Big Boy for soup and salad bar and coffee.  It is so good.  I got this care for free from Current stationary.  It made me think of you.
I hope you are feeling better and sleeping at night.  I have trouble sleeping also.  Soon Sandy will be here.  When are you coming?  When is your vacation?  I'd love to see you.  You are always welcome.
Our weather is warmer today and sunny.  Oh, I have lost 6# without knowing it.  So I guess I'll get to making milk shakes or something.  I don't know how I lost so much.  I asked the nurse if the scale was right and she said yes.
I don't think I'll keep going to the Mormon church.  I don't know what I'll do for Easter.  I may go Baptist or Episcopal depending on our weather.  The Episcopal church has been supplying us iwth meals for over a week.  It is really nice of them.
Bob is home sleeping.  I got to go home and make supper for him. I got him 2 apple sticks for breakfast tomorrow.
I have been doing pelvic rocks the past two days and my abdomen hurts to say the least.  My appetite is good.  I should be gaining weight and not losing.  I only weight #112.
Well, I hope things are better for you in all matters.  How is David?  What about Greg?  What happened with the others your wrote about?
Well, I must close.  Please write me and get will for your mom.  I love you so much and MISS YOU.

All my love,
Mom

Saturday, March 16, 1985

March 16, 1985

Dear Betsy,
It is really good to have a lovely daughter like you.  I am so proud of you.  I remember when you were a little baby and now you are grown.  I missed those five years so much.  I wish we could have another visit like we last did.  I hope this card arrives on time.  Buy yourself something to remember me when you see it.  I hope you have a very nice day and many more to come.  I really do love you and miss you.

Love always,
Mom

Happy Birthday to a wonderful daughter who is lovelier every year…
and even more dear.  Have a wonderful day!