This is my mother. She left me when I was just 14 years old. I saw her a few times from teenage through the typical college years (although I didn’t have typical college years) and then she passed away before I married or had children. She was a wonderful woman that I know I would talk to her often if she were alive, but I really never got the chance.

The most current entries are things I would tell her and only her ... because they aren’t meant to be heard, just vented (if she were alive). The majority of this blog are letters she wrote to me (and a few to my sisters) during the years that we were apart.

Wednesday, May 18, 1983

May 18, 1983

Dear Sandy,
I got your beautiful Mother's Day card today.  I was so thrilled and I loved it.  It was so nice of you.  I miss you.  I will leave it on the TV.
I had blood drawn for thyroid tests on Saturday and my results came today.  I have to up it to .2 mgm like you took.  I have been so tired and depressed.  I fall asleep easily.  Today I took Bob to church for dinner and food.  I went to St. Paul's for Communion and Healing services.  My feet are swollen.  It is lonely here.  I am taking Confirmation classes (and Bob too) at St. Michael's.  We will join on June 5th and be confirmed Episcopalion.
Bob is at Physical Therapy at the UA clinic right now.  Grandpa golfed today and had a good time.  Grandma worked Monday and Tuesday and had a group of women at her house last night.  She sure keeps busy.
I have a pretty Jade plant from the Crown and Septor Club at Eastern Stars.  It is on the TV also.  My poinsetta is drooping down.
Later 10:10 pm
I am drinking Sanka out of your cup.  I use it all the time.  Friday I go to see Kay @ Dr. Archombeau's.  Joyce did some laundry yesterday.  Debbie got me bananas and I made bread with the real ripe ones.
We are supposed to get rain for a few days.  There is cool weather now but my temp was only 94 this am.  It goes up as the day goes on.
I am glad you are well.  Sorry to hear about your foot and knee.  I hope they are better.  I have been knitting some.  Some scarf.  I go to bed and work on mail, etc.  I spend a lot of time on my Bible.
Congratulations on Honorary Spanish Club.  I am happy for you.
Give me the name of where I can get a letter to you and address and phone number.  Remember I love you dearly.  Write me please.

All my love,
Your "Mommy"

PS:  I heard "It's hard to say I'm sorry"