This is my mother. She left me when I was just 14 years old. I saw her a few times from teenage through the typical college years (although I didn’t have typical college years) and then she passed away before I married or had children. She was a wonderful woman that I know I would talk to her often if she were alive, but I really never got the chance.

The most current entries are things I would tell her and only her ... because they aren’t meant to be heard, just vented (if she were alive). The majority of this blog are letters she wrote to me (and a few to my sisters) during the years that we were apart.

Friday, February 20, 1987

February 20, 1987

Dear Betsy,
I was so thrilled with your phone call on my birthday and the other day.  It is great talking to you.  Just think in less than a month you will be 21 years old.  It is hard to believe.  I am very proud of you.  I am glad you are happy and going to college this fall.  Will you still work?
I love my beautiful Christmas present.   I called Penney's last night and reordere the comforter and sheets.  I am taking the others back today.  It was so wonderful of you and I was so surprised.
Bob bought me some really pretty bikinis and my 1st teddy.  It is lavender and sexy.  He is over a lot and we sleep on the hadeaway bed.  Don't tell anyone.

Feb 21.
Just talked to you and got your letter.  I am glad you and Kermon are back together.  Bob is a sickman.  He is napping now.  I am baking a meat loaf and baked potatoes.  I cook a lot and love it.  I am gaining some weight.  I even have some gray hair on the top of my pretty auburn hair.  Did I tell you I had it cut short and a curly perm.  All I do is wash it and pick it and it dries on its own.  It is cute and I look so much younger.  Well, I spent money yesterday at Penneys.  I got bikinis and teddy and a beautiful gown set and a nice casual dress.  Plus I really felt sexy and got you and Kirstie some beautiful things for your birthdays.  I also got myself 2 half slips - perfect.
Grandma and Grandpa are coming back from Florida on Wednesday.  I guess they are having a good time.  Both are tired.
I read a lot and enjoy that.  I watch little TV.  Aunt Ida is fine.  I go to the South End again tomorrow and will get a coffee pot and eat at Rudys for hot dog and chilli.  I go to West Toledo all afternoon today after I go to the point and get Kelly's distemper shot.  I sure love my little cat.  I made back an eggs today for Bob and I.
Bob's only leg has no pulse in the groin, behind the knee and foot.  He has a start of gangreen on 2 toes.  He has to have a molecule x-ray of the Aorta on Thursday.  They want to do a by-pass.  Six years ago they said it was impossible and lost his left leg.  He is afraid he can't have a general anesthetic.  He is sure he will die.  I keep trying to encourage him.  I have to go to the same cardivascular doctor Wednesday.  My 2 big toes are full of fungus because of bad circulation.  One of the toes is full of pus under it.  Ugly.  Yesterday, my feet got so hot and swollen from shopping.  Bob and I went to Friendly's for ice cream and coffee.  Then I went to a pharmacy to buy the cheapest ASA I could find.  I could bearly walk.  None of the clerks would get me water.  Well, a customer looked at my red swollen feet and said.  I will walk to the pharmacy and get a glass of water and she did.  I said God bless you.  There are some kind people left in the world after all.
Well, 12 o'clock news says you have loads of snow.  We are warm and sunny.  I guess I should close and get this in the mail.  Write me or call me.  I really do love you.  I hope all is well with you.  Can we see each other soon?  Id' love it.  Give my love to Kirstie.  Tell her, that her once a year letter is long overdue.  Take care.  I love you.

All my love,
Your mom