This is my mother. She left me when I was just 14 years old. I saw her a few times from teenage through the typical college years (although I didn’t have typical college years) and then she passed away before I married or had children. She was a wonderful woman that I know I would talk to her often if she were alive, but I really never got the chance.

The most current entries are things I would tell her and only her ... because they aren’t meant to be heard, just vented (if she were alive). The majority of this blog are letters she wrote to me (and a few to my sisters) during the years that we were apart.

Tuesday, August 4, 1981

August 4, 1981

Dear girls,
Just a short note to let you know that I am thinking of you and miss you so much.  In a week you will be getting ready to come and stay with me.  I can hardly wait to see you.  It has been 18 months for 2 of you.  I may get a new apartment and you can help me move into it.  I hope you are anxious to come.  I probably can't afford to feed you expensive food or take you out much.  I hope you have fun.  I really love and am really looking forward to your visit.  Grandma and Grandpa are supposed to get you on the 12th and bring you here.  Now they are counting the money and want me to let you come by bus.  Oh, what a mess.  I wish I could come and get you myself.  I am still trying to read.  I am so lonely and I don't get letters from you.  Why don't you write?  Millie took me to breakfast this morning at the Pancake house and I had a delicious bow of oatmeal, juice and 7 grain toast, egg, Sanka, and strawberries.  It was delicious and expensive.  They make all their things from scratch and use the purest ingredients.  They made the oatmeal with cream.  I am struggling to knot and embroider.  It is frustrating.  I want to go the school and get a job in the far future.   I would like to become a psychologist but it takes lots of time and money.  I could also go into nutrition.  It is really hot and humid here today.  It is hard on my feet and legs.  Betsy, have your dad take some pictures of you as I have none.  I have all your animals on my bed and sleep with them.  I wish I could get interested in a book to read.  I am so lonely and bored.  I had some coffee this noon on the way home from the doctor.  Well I am out of space and want to get this mailed.  Please remember I LOVE YOU.  Write!  See you soon.  All my love,

Mom