This is my mother. She left me when I was just 14 years old. I saw her a few times from teenage through the typical college years (although I didn’t have typical college years) and then she passed away before I married or had children. She was a wonderful woman that I know I would talk to her often if she were alive, but I really never got the chance.

The most current entries are things I would tell her and only her ... because they aren’t meant to be heard, just vented (if she were alive). The majority of this blog are letters she wrote to me (and a few to my sisters) during the years that we were apart.

Wednesday, January 16, 1985

January 16, 1985


Dear Betsy,
I was so thrilled to get your phone call on Sunday.  It was great.  I really did miss you.  Bob said I have much more happiness since you called.  Did you get my letter yet and have your mailed all of yours to me?  So you have a secret admirer?  Must be nice to get flowers.  I remember the teen and early 20 years.  You sound like you are enjoying them.  So what about Raleigh?  That was Bob's Father's name.  Bob fell yesterday and aches a lot today.  He stays up at night and sleeps days and lots of the evenings.  Today I made chili.  It takes a lot of time.  I made apple pudding a few days ago and Bob ate it all.  I think he is gaining weight.  I wake up early and put coffee on and then I put in the bedroom and drink it as I read, etc. I have to sleep with the cradle on.  I get such hot feet and legs and knees at night.  I still have to take lots of medicine.  I sit in a chair every day with my legs up.  Before hed I have to soak my feet in cold water and put on lots of cream on my feet.
Tomorrow I am getting my hair trimmed.  Jeanette is 23 and will come here to do it.  She has been a real friend.  She gave me $20 for Christmas.   She goes to Bethel Baptist church and her mom is a couple years older than me and a good Christian friend.  Jeanette works as a beautician in a shop and on the side.  Plus she works at Friendly's Ice cream parlor.  She is very busy.  I have to wash  my hair before she comes.  She'll cut it wet.
Last night a friend called from the Mormon church and came and went to the grocery store for me.  We get $30 from Bob's church and she used that.  It still costs me $12  more.  I still have another store to have someone shop at tomorrow for Bob's beer and wine and other things.  We can barely afford anything.
Grandma was really upsetting to me on the phone and she hasn't called.  I did nothing wrong. She said I shouldn't have married Bob and we live in a dump.  It really hurt me.  I can't help it we are poor.  Grandpa has painful neurolgia and has to take medicine so Aunt Ida says.  They haven't called.  I guess I should.  
It is really cold here.  We are to get snow now and during the night.
Well, I am out of any good news. Please keep in touch with me.  I miss you.  Remember I love you with all my heart.
Take care and write,
All my love,
Mom