This is my mother. She left me when I was just 14 years old. I saw her a few times from teenage through the typical college years (although I didn’t have typical college years) and then she passed away before I married or had children. She was a wonderful woman that I know I would talk to her often if she were alive, but I really never got the chance.

The most current entries are things I would tell her and only her ... because they aren’t meant to be heard, just vented (if she were alive). The majority of this blog are letters she wrote to me (and a few to my sisters) during the years that we were apart.

Tuesday, April 24, 1990

April 24, 1990

Dear Betsy,

Couldn't find your address.  Hope this is all right.  I have hypothermia now and it is 84 degrees outside.  We can't afford air conditioning.

April 25
I am at McDonalds.  I had sausage with egg McMuffin.  I am not hypothermic today.  You can tell by my writing.  Earl took the care to the dealer becasue readio and cassette player won't work.  I hate not having music in the car.  We listen to tapes most of the time.

That Barium test was positive for Sclorodema.  So now I have to take more pills and pray for a remission.  My blood work is up also.  So do pray for me.  Earl and I pray 2 x a day.  He really loves me.  I am so happy with him.  We are making a linen suit for me.  It is a pretty pink.  I want it made for Mom's day.

Ricky is getting married May 12th.  He is excited and happy.  Grandma and Grandpa are going.  So sorry to hear about your broken arm.  What did you do when it got wet.

The disease I have is fatal  - it will be watched closely.

April 30
Sorry it has taken so long to write this.  Yesterday we went to McDonalds all dressed for church.  I ate and got sick.  Threw up.  Most cases of Scleroderma occur on outside which I have but I have it in the esophagus which is why my doctor says I have to live on medicine and baby food.  I cook such good food for Earl.  Oh, I can have eggs, oatmeal and milk.

Earl is busy sewing my pink suit.  He does a beautiful job and has a lot of patience.

All our trees and ground cover has turned green or blossomed.  It is pretty.  Saw a deer (doe) across the street about 6:30 PM.

Earl called the Bishop yesterday.  The Bishop's Mom called me today.  She is 83 and lives in Lancaster where our church is.  She called me because I have no friends.  Earl is my life and he really loves me.  We do and go everywhere.  We watch videos from the library.

Well, I am out of news and want to get this in the mail.  Hop your arm is better.  Remember I love you and miss you so much.

All my love,
Mom and Earl