Dear Betsy,
I got your letter today. I was going to write you anyway. Thanks for caring and the letter.
Days go so slow for me. It is such a lonely life. It is so hot here for my feet and legs. I go to bed early and get up early. Did I give you my new phone number? It is …
So Kirstie has moved out. Do you miss your fights? How is your study?
I love my glasses and looked everywhere. Well, today I found them and I am so glad. I got to get my eyes examined. I had to get 2 new RX's yesterday for $50 and only enough for 15 days. It is terrible. I got a Taco Salad but it made my belly upset but it was delicious.
tomorrow, my parents are taking me to brunch at Tinkos. Aunt Ida is going and we leave here at 10:30 and go to Perrysburg. It will be hard on me but my dad will be happy. I am glad they are paying for it.
June 21
It is Sunday AM and I just tried to call you but Alison said you were gone for the weekend. I am sorry I missed you. We went to the brunch and had a 1/2 hour wait. It was huge and really good. I even ate dessert after lots of fruit, etc. Then we came here and I gave Grandpa a little gift.
June 23
Bob and I would have been remarried 3 years day. He forgot but we are going to LePeeps for fancy breakfast at 10 am tomorrow. I will have the most delicious oatmeal and blueberries and cream, juice and whole wheat muffin and pot of coffee. Really good and expensive too.
Yesterday I finished the baby blanket I made for Sandy Hodge's baby. It is 2 yards long and 60 inches wide and all bound by wide yellow satin. It is so pretty. I hope she likes it.
Last night and tonight "Women in White" are on. It is so good and I will stay up late. I decided to go to bed at 10:15 and up and on my feet in 12 hours. The days are not so long that way.
Did I tell you I start on Intermediate sewing class on July 9th in the evenings?
Bob took me to the Olive Garden yesterday and I had a huge virgin Mary, big salad and really good eggplant. I was stuffed. He is good to me at times.
So you are dating Paul. Tell me about him. Is he nice, good looking, etc. and good to you? What about Kermon? By the way Grandma and Grandpa still have his clothes he left at their house. Well, I am out of news. Write me soon. I love you so much.
All my love,
Mom
Tuesday, June 30, 1987
Saturday, June 13, 1987
June 13, 1987
Dear Betsy,
Here I am writing you again. A lot has happened.
I have been very dwon and unable to sleep. I have a lot on my mind. My parents are really upsetting. The brakes on their precious car which is what I drive are shot. I told them and told them. Now everything will need replacing. My dad knows nothing about cars.
I had to go to my doctor to get some help. He put me on my estrogen only increased it. Plus he wants me to take progestrone for 10 days a month. I am going for a pap smear on July 10th I will gain weight from the medicine. I don't eat that much really. I am making a batch of the most delicious chili. I get up early. Bob is coming later to eat with me. We love hot spicy chili. I learned to cook so different with Bob. I even love avadcados. I try lots of things. I love italian and mexican food. I don't like rice, macaroni, nooles or pastas. I love vegetables, cottage cheese. Before I go to bed I heat a cup of milk and add 1 tsp of nesltles Quick. Relaxing. Plus I take my calcium since I am getting older and I don't want osteoporous.
I am without a car and I hate it. I can't do anything. I have to go early because of the heat. I wish summer were over for my sake. I like cool days and dreary. The sun really gets my feet and knees. I don't know if I'll get to church tomorrow either or even where to go.
I am still mixed up about that. I like the Episcopal church but it isn't air conditioning. I think I'll go back to being a Presbyterian and forget all others. Between religion, my disease, my parnets and Bob, it is no wonder I am a basket case. You know, it broke my heart not to go to Sandy's wedding or get to meet Mark and see all of you. I was so upset that day. I had my ticket all paid for and I lost my $200 or I wish everyone could understand (including me) that I am no longer able to do much. I love you so much and your sisters and I am missing so much. It is very sad. But I can't dwell on it. I pray for you every day. I do feel better today and I slept better.
Bob and I may not go back. I like my freedom. I guess I belong alone with the conditions I have to live under. I like things neat and he doesn't. I can't take clutter.
Well, the brakes were through to metal but my dad is going to pay for it all. Thank God for that.
Well, I guess I'll close now. Please write and understand my confusion. I love you, dearly. I miss you. come and see me.
All my love,
Mom
Here I am writing you again. A lot has happened.
I have been very dwon and unable to sleep. I have a lot on my mind. My parents are really upsetting. The brakes on their precious car which is what I drive are shot. I told them and told them. Now everything will need replacing. My dad knows nothing about cars.
I had to go to my doctor to get some help. He put me on my estrogen only increased it. Plus he wants me to take progestrone for 10 days a month. I am going for a pap smear on July 10th I will gain weight from the medicine. I don't eat that much really. I am making a batch of the most delicious chili. I get up early. Bob is coming later to eat with me. We love hot spicy chili. I learned to cook so different with Bob. I even love avadcados. I try lots of things. I love italian and mexican food. I don't like rice, macaroni, nooles or pastas. I love vegetables, cottage cheese. Before I go to bed I heat a cup of milk and add 1 tsp of nesltles Quick. Relaxing. Plus I take my calcium since I am getting older and I don't want osteoporous.
I am without a car and I hate it. I can't do anything. I have to go early because of the heat. I wish summer were over for my sake. I like cool days and dreary. The sun really gets my feet and knees. I don't know if I'll get to church tomorrow either or even where to go.
I am still mixed up about that. I like the Episcopal church but it isn't air conditioning. I think I'll go back to being a Presbyterian and forget all others. Between religion, my disease, my parnets and Bob, it is no wonder I am a basket case. You know, it broke my heart not to go to Sandy's wedding or get to meet Mark and see all of you. I was so upset that day. I had my ticket all paid for and I lost my $200 or I wish everyone could understand (including me) that I am no longer able to do much. I love you so much and your sisters and I am missing so much. It is very sad. But I can't dwell on it. I pray for you every day. I do feel better today and I slept better.
Bob and I may not go back. I like my freedom. I guess I belong alone with the conditions I have to live under. I like things neat and he doesn't. I can't take clutter.
Well, the brakes were through to metal but my dad is going to pay for it all. Thank God for that.
Well, I guess I'll close now. Please write and understand my confusion. I love you, dearly. I miss you. come and see me.
All my love,
Mom
Thursday, June 11, 1987
June 11, 1987
Dear Betsy,
I mailed your last letter on Monday and got your package that afternoon. The gown is lovely. It fits too. I really love it. Thank you so very much. I love you and I do appreciate your love.
I don't know when I wrote you this week that Bob and I are trying to work things out. I took my phone off the hook for several days and I wouldn't let him in. I finally met him and talked to him. I have been so mixed up. I need someone and I do love him. He truly is patient and loves me. I can't leave a part. So he is over here and sleeps on the sofa. This morning I was up at 5:30 and it was cool. I ate and I went with him to the White Hut. I had coffee and bought him breakfast. I then went to Dunkin Donuts and got 1 1/2 dozen donuts. Then I got a few groceries. The sad part is the brakes on the car. They are grinding and it has to go for probably over $300 work. I have $130 charged on Sohio for air conditioning. I don't know what to do about money. My mom owns the car and they pay for nothing. Only Bob understands.
Tomorrow I go to the doctor and have to spend a lot of money on medicine refills. So I am very poor.
I would love to move away from all this but I guess I can't.
So how are you and your love life? What is going on? We could write a book. You know Bob really understands me and helps me a lot. I love with a lot of pain. My legs and feet burn and throb so much at night and morning. It is a hard life. If it weren't for you girls and Bob, I'd probably quit.
Tonight Kirstie graduates. Seems like you just did. Time goes faster as a person gets older. It is true. I hope she has a nice graduation. I miss these times. I missed all of yours. At least I got to install you as Worthy Advisor and now you are a beautiful Eastern Star. I am so proud of you.
I hope you understand about me and Bob. I do care for him and I guess we really belong together. He is really good to me.
Sandy called yesterday. She is fine. She and Mark went to the doctor and she is 6 months pregnant. All is well. She is on vitamins. She is leaving Sunday for Provo to babysit for Mark's niece for a month.
I have a new phone number… I don't have to give it out.
Well, I am out of news. I love you honey and thank you for the beautiful gift. It was so nice of you. You are special and a wonderful daughter. I wish I was more of your life. I missed so much but I can't dwell on it. I love you.
All my love,
Mom
Write me honey!!!
I mailed your last letter on Monday and got your package that afternoon. The gown is lovely. It fits too. I really love it. Thank you so very much. I love you and I do appreciate your love.
I don't know when I wrote you this week that Bob and I are trying to work things out. I took my phone off the hook for several days and I wouldn't let him in. I finally met him and talked to him. I have been so mixed up. I need someone and I do love him. He truly is patient and loves me. I can't leave a part. So he is over here and sleeps on the sofa. This morning I was up at 5:30 and it was cool. I ate and I went with him to the White Hut. I had coffee and bought him breakfast. I then went to Dunkin Donuts and got 1 1/2 dozen donuts. Then I got a few groceries. The sad part is the brakes on the car. They are grinding and it has to go for probably over $300 work. I have $130 charged on Sohio for air conditioning. I don't know what to do about money. My mom owns the car and they pay for nothing. Only Bob understands.
Tomorrow I go to the doctor and have to spend a lot of money on medicine refills. So I am very poor.
I would love to move away from all this but I guess I can't.
So how are you and your love life? What is going on? We could write a book. You know Bob really understands me and helps me a lot. I love with a lot of pain. My legs and feet burn and throb so much at night and morning. It is a hard life. If it weren't for you girls and Bob, I'd probably quit.
Tonight Kirstie graduates. Seems like you just did. Time goes faster as a person gets older. It is true. I hope she has a nice graduation. I miss these times. I missed all of yours. At least I got to install you as Worthy Advisor and now you are a beautiful Eastern Star. I am so proud of you.
I hope you understand about me and Bob. I do care for him and I guess we really belong together. He is really good to me.
Sandy called yesterday. She is fine. She and Mark went to the doctor and she is 6 months pregnant. All is well. She is on vitamins. She is leaving Sunday for Provo to babysit for Mark's niece for a month.
I have a new phone number… I don't have to give it out.
Well, I am out of news. I love you honey and thank you for the beautiful gift. It was so nice of you. You are special and a wonderful daughter. I wish I was more of your life. I missed so much but I can't dwell on it. I love you.
All my love,
Mom
Write me honey!!!
Sunday, June 7, 1987
June 7, 1987
Dear Betsy,
I received a letter from you yesterday. I love to hear from you. So you are going to George Mason. Is that in Reston? Will you still love at home? It is hard to believe Kirstie is going to graduate. I am proud of you. Now, if both you and I could put our love life on the right track! Sounds like you are going to have a ball at the beach. I did things like that when I was younger. Your Dad and I went boating a lot and we loved it. I always go sunburned. Bob drives me crazy for the most part. When he leaves me alone my ulcer is okay. Yesterday it felt close to bleeding. Today I am okay. He called at 6:45 and I didn't answer. So he rang my phone 75 times and it drove me crazy. When it quit, I took it off the hook and left it. I hope you aren't trying to get me.
I can't come for Kirstie's graduation because of my legs and I'll be upset because I'll miss it. I love her just as much. I wish she would write me or call. I don't know what to do for a gift. She would probably appreciate the money. You came to visit me. We had a very nice visit, didn't we. You know, Bob really thinks you are great! He puts so much pressure on me and makes me feel guilty. I must not care too much for him. I feel like his slave. He has me cook, do dishes, etc. I hardly have many dishes when he is not here. I am trying to eat foods high in calcium.
Now, as far as know who is "Mr. Right," you will when it happens. Sounds like Dave and you were the happiest. Now I knew your dad was Mr. Right and I felt very much in love. I still think a lot of him. We really had a good marriage. He traveled too much and I worked too much. I should never worked so much on 3-11 shift. I missed a lot of all of your lives. Then my health went bad. Sometimes I think we were happiest up Sugarloaf Mountain. We love it there and I worked hard and so did your dad. I miss it. I could have had a great career but we moved a lot and then my legs got so bad. I did work hard. So did your dad. I am so happy I had three daughters and they are well and love life. Soon I'll have a grandchild. Hard to believe.
So I made a mess of my life. I probably should never married Bob. I was lonely, sick, etc. We only knew each other for one and 1/2 months before sivore. He was nice to everyone. Now he is mad at the world. I still see good sides of him. Somehow I don't think things could work out. What do you think? Your dad never used bad language. I just heard on TV that you never get over your first love. I think that is true. What do you think?
I bought a Farberware 8 cup coffee maker. I had a new automatic drip and hated it. I make 4 cups of coffee every morning which is 2 big mugs full. It is delicious. Then I go to the community room for a small cup around 10 am. Do you ever drink coffee? Nurses love coffee.
I can't exercise anymore because I have a abdominal hernia. I walk a little in the closest mall and climb some steps. So I got a little bigger belly but I can't help it. I weight 122$#.
Bob took me to Red Lobster for lunch yesterday. I had a virgin Mary with celery. Then I had scallops and shrimp with tossed salad and cauliflower. Everything was delicious. Then we went to TCBY for yogurt. Oh, I love that stuff. My friend, Judy goes to get it every day. It is a long way for me.
Grandpa got groceries for me on Friday. It is hard for me to do in the heat. Grandma and he are nice to me now. She is so busy. Today she has hives. She is back working plus the Eastern Stars. I dearly loved the picture of you. You are so beautiful, really.
I will always treasure it. Thank you so much. I thank you so much for your letters, etc. I really appreciate them so much.
Kelly is fine. She loves the afternoon sun. I really love her. She listens to me a lot. She is a great comfort. The days are so long.
Well, I am out of news. Remember I love you so very much. I'd love to see you. Maybe you could come before school starts. Are you going to work too?
I miss you, honey. Write soon.
All my love,
Mom
I received a letter from you yesterday. I love to hear from you. So you are going to George Mason. Is that in Reston? Will you still love at home? It is hard to believe Kirstie is going to graduate. I am proud of you. Now, if both you and I could put our love life on the right track! Sounds like you are going to have a ball at the beach. I did things like that when I was younger. Your Dad and I went boating a lot and we loved it. I always go sunburned. Bob drives me crazy for the most part. When he leaves me alone my ulcer is okay. Yesterday it felt close to bleeding. Today I am okay. He called at 6:45 and I didn't answer. So he rang my phone 75 times and it drove me crazy. When it quit, I took it off the hook and left it. I hope you aren't trying to get me.
I can't come for Kirstie's graduation because of my legs and I'll be upset because I'll miss it. I love her just as much. I wish she would write me or call. I don't know what to do for a gift. She would probably appreciate the money. You came to visit me. We had a very nice visit, didn't we. You know, Bob really thinks you are great! He puts so much pressure on me and makes me feel guilty. I must not care too much for him. I feel like his slave. He has me cook, do dishes, etc. I hardly have many dishes when he is not here. I am trying to eat foods high in calcium.
Now, as far as know who is "Mr. Right," you will when it happens. Sounds like Dave and you were the happiest. Now I knew your dad was Mr. Right and I felt very much in love. I still think a lot of him. We really had a good marriage. He traveled too much and I worked too much. I should never worked so much on 3-11 shift. I missed a lot of all of your lives. Then my health went bad. Sometimes I think we were happiest up Sugarloaf Mountain. We love it there and I worked hard and so did your dad. I miss it. I could have had a great career but we moved a lot and then my legs got so bad. I did work hard. So did your dad. I am so happy I had three daughters and they are well and love life. Soon I'll have a grandchild. Hard to believe.
So I made a mess of my life. I probably should never married Bob. I was lonely, sick, etc. We only knew each other for one and 1/2 months before sivore. He was nice to everyone. Now he is mad at the world. I still see good sides of him. Somehow I don't think things could work out. What do you think? Your dad never used bad language. I just heard on TV that you never get over your first love. I think that is true. What do you think?
I bought a Farberware 8 cup coffee maker. I had a new automatic drip and hated it. I make 4 cups of coffee every morning which is 2 big mugs full. It is delicious. Then I go to the community room for a small cup around 10 am. Do you ever drink coffee? Nurses love coffee.
I can't exercise anymore because I have a abdominal hernia. I walk a little in the closest mall and climb some steps. So I got a little bigger belly but I can't help it. I weight 122$#.
Bob took me to Red Lobster for lunch yesterday. I had a virgin Mary with celery. Then I had scallops and shrimp with tossed salad and cauliflower. Everything was delicious. Then we went to TCBY for yogurt. Oh, I love that stuff. My friend, Judy goes to get it every day. It is a long way for me.
Grandpa got groceries for me on Friday. It is hard for me to do in the heat. Grandma and he are nice to me now. She is so busy. Today she has hives. She is back working plus the Eastern Stars. I dearly loved the picture of you. You are so beautiful, really.
I will always treasure it. Thank you so much. I thank you so much for your letters, etc. I really appreciate them so much.
Kelly is fine. She loves the afternoon sun. I really love her. She listens to me a lot. She is a great comfort. The days are so long.
Well, I am out of news. Remember I love you so very much. I'd love to see you. Maybe you could come before school starts. Are you going to work too?
I miss you, honey. Write soon.
All my love,
Mom
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