This is my mother. She left me when I was just 14 years old. I saw her a few times from teenage through the typical college years (although I didn’t have typical college years) and then she passed away before I married or had children. She was a wonderful woman that I know I would talk to her often if she were alive, but I really never got the chance.

The most current entries are things I would tell her and only her ... because they aren’t meant to be heard, just vented (if she were alive). The majority of this blog are letters she wrote to me (and a few to my sisters) during the years that we were apart.

Sunday, December 16, 1984

December 16, 1984

Dear Betsy,
I haven't heard from you for a long time.  I am lonely and miss you today.  I can't afford to call and I never know when you are home.
My left hip is really bad and hurts so bad.  I ended up crying to sleep.  Today I washed my hair and did 2 loads of laundry in the basement.  The stairs really hurt the hip.  I am on 2nd round of antibiotics.
We have been having rain here and warmer temperatures.  My feet are bad.
Last Saturday our 1/2 bathroom (I mean 1/2 of the BR flooded and towels were put on the floor)  They smelled and turned brown.  Well I wore thongs but I got impentigo on the toes.  So now I am painted purple.
So I hope you are better off than me.  I never see any family.  My mom had 2 big parties this past week.  She has no time for her family.  She will see what she has done some day when it is too late.  I would never be too busy for you.  You'd be first.
Bob is feeling a little better but he sleeps days and evenings so I am lonely.  I don't know what makes him so sleepy.
My hair is really very long and curls by self but I will set it in a little while.  My hair keeps me warm.
My church news came today and I haven't had a chance to look at it.
So what are you doing besides the working?  What about David?
I guess Bob and I will have Christmas by ourselves.  My parents will probably invite us the day before or Christmas day.  I don't plan to go there.
They are playing Christmas Carols on the radio and they are so pretty.  Did I tell you I have been playing my violin a lot?  It is hard work but sounds much better.
Well, I sure hope you are enjoying life and happy.  It is important to be happy. Remember I love you dearly and miss you so much.  Ask Bob how much I cry because I miss my daughters.  I love you!!

Merry Christmas.
All my love,
Your mom