This is my mother. She left me when I was just 14 years old. I saw her a few times from teenage through the typical college years (although I didn’t have typical college years) and then she passed away before I married or had children. She was a wonderful woman that I know I would talk to her often if she were alive, but I really never got the chance.

The most current entries are things I would tell her and only her ... because they aren’t meant to be heard, just vented (if she were alive). The majority of this blog are letters she wrote to me (and a few to my sisters) during the years that we were apart.

Tuesday, January 2, 1990

January 2, 1990

Dear Betsy,

Christmas Day Earl couldn't wake me from coma.  Then he discovered I was so cold.  He rushed me to ER in Circleville, over 20  miles away from here.  My body temperature was 86 degrees instead of 98.  They worked on me all day and evening.  Then I was awake.  They let Earl in to see me.  Then, a few hours later, I had a fever.

The next morning I spent in x-ray.  They found a big sinus infection.  So I had to have 2 IV antibiotics for 3 days.  Now, I am fine.  No cough, etc.  Of course, I had to quit smoking.  Cold turkey.  You can't smoke in ICU and I don't think my doctor would approve.  I have a very good doctor.  It was 50-60 bed hospital.  Nice nurses.  I was so happy to see Earl when I warmed up.  He was so good to me.  I sure did scare him.  He was so afraid he lost me.

It is lonely here.  I only see Earl.  Sometimes I see his son.  He has 2 daughters, one 15 and 18.  The 18 year old got engaged for Christmas.  I guess she is getting married in September.

I really messed up Christmas this year.  Last I remember Kirstie and you were coming.  I wanted you to come so much.  Money is so short now.  We owe for 4 appliances.  Earl is dizzy today so I am making him rest.  He wants to go and cut wood.

I have very little in veins.  I have been so sick so much.  My memory is shot.  I remember coming to VA and staying with you.  We want to thank you so much.  I know we disturbed you fixing breakfast.  I am so sorry.  Kirstie sure did very well.  I am proud of her.

I found the Mormon church.  It is 20-25 miles SE of here in Lancaster.  It is brand new.  I don't smoke or drink alcohol.  I only decaff coffee or tea.  I even got it in the hospital.  Usually they give a person regular coffee.

Earl got me a Quadruple of scriptures.  It cost $35.  I like it very much.

I am starting to lose a # or 2.  I weighed in 135# in the hospital.  So I eat very little and have lost my big appetite.  I drink juice and eat small bowl of cereal.  No lunch.  Supper is meat, vegetables and sometimes salad.  Eggnog before I go to bed.  That's all.  I should lose weight.  Earl lost 15# since you saw him.  He looks good and is proud of himself.

I had a body temperature of 86 on Christmas Day and Earl couldn't wake me.  So we had no Christmas.  Christmas Eve his son and wife came over and brought wine and fruit basket.  I don't remember anything else.

Someone helped wrap me in blankets and Earl to ER.  His son met him there and stayed with Earl until I come to.

Well, honey, I will close.  Remember, I love you dearly.  Our phone #.

All my love,
Mom