This is my mother. She left me when I was just 14 years old. I saw her a few times from teenage through the typical college years (although I didn’t have typical college years) and then she passed away before I married or had children. She was a wonderful woman that I know I would talk to her often if she were alive, but I really never got the chance.

The most current entries are things I would tell her and only her ... because they aren’t meant to be heard, just vented (if she were alive). The majority of this blog are letters she wrote to me (and a few to my sisters) during the years that we were apart.

Tuesday, March 8, 1983

March 8, 1983

Dear Betsy,
I hope this letter finds you well and happy.  I have really been busy with Bob so sick in the hospital.  He is doing better but they are still running lots of tests.  It is hard to find a ride every day to see him.  I can't be on my feet very long.  He now has diarrhea.  He looks better and is getting back his good sense of humor.  He is out CCU.
Your birthday is in 10 days.  I can hardly believe it.  I remember when you were born and praying so hard for you to live.  I love you so much and I had not even held you.  Thank God you lived and grew up to be such a lovely and beautiful daughter.  When I see little girls all dressed up I remember how I used to dress you up and fix your pretty hair.  I am very proud of you and your accomplishments.  Please keep up what you are doing and become a lovely woman.
How is school going?  Sandy does go to school and gets her homework done but eats and watches TV so much.  Plus she exercises a lot.  I do sit ups every night and lift small weights with my arms.  It builds up muscles.  I still weigh 121#.  I eat a huge breakfast.  My right hip bone hurts a lot.  I laid on it in ICU a lot and afterwards.  The pain makes me sick.  I have to take pain pills for my feet and legs now.
They do help.  I miss Bob.  I go to sleep at 2 am but go to bed around 8 pm to rest my legs.
It has been lovely weather here but today it is cooler and rain.  Tonight is supposed to be 30 degrees.  I had planned on going to communion service tomorrow morning but may not be able if it is too cold for my feet.  I go to the Episcopal church now.  I have a lot of Mormon friends.
Well, I must close.  Please try to write your mom.  I miss you and love you very much.

All my love,
Mom