Dear Betsy,
My pen is bad but I am at the Oral Surgeons in the parking lot waiting to get my absessed tooth out. I went to the dentist yesterday and he couldn't pull it so he went me here. This is Sunday. Thank God I'll soon have some relief. After a week I should be okay. Lost my other tooth a month ago. I can't understand why my teeth are going bad.
Grandma and Grandpa are trading in my 1983 Omega and giving me the 1987 Pointiac. It is maroon and a real beauty. I can't wait to get it.
Had my tooth pulled by the oral surgeon and I had to have stitches. I am okay. Cost $50 but at least it is out. I am swollen. I just drank some soup and coffee. I went to Grandma and Grandpa after he pulled the tooth. They gave me money to go and take home a bowl of broccoli soup from Friendly's. I had to put it in the blender but it was very good. I am still hungry. I didn't get to church today. I hope you have good teeth. Take care of them. I have never had trouble until Bob died. I still miss him but it is getting easier. I still wear my wedding ring. He was buried with his on. He always wanted to be. I go to the cemetery a lot. The VA is giving him a Military Marker. I have to pay the setting charge. I am planning to pay for everything (I think). Then you kids won't have to worry about anything. I have $20,000 life insurance and you kids each get 1/3 of my estate. My parents know this.
I had to have a State insurance physical for Bob's insurance to qualify me as being disabled. He and 2 other doctors say I am unfortuntiatly deteriorating in the legs. He said "My dear, I have never seen anyone with so awful many things wrong in one person and yet I have no cancer." Neither did Bob. I pray you kids will be like your dad. I worry about it. I would never married nor had children if I had known of this. It has and will continue to destroy my life. I do the best I can and try very hard to be happy. I get out when I can. I bought my Markel and new one beautiful clothes. Got them all on sale. Three dresses for Markel. Plus I bought blanket material for the new one. Gave me great joy. I am sewing this pink dress for Markel. Hope I can figure it out and it fits. I am reading a good book. I like to read and have a lot of free time. I do sketches, too, for fun. My 2 plants are growing. I don't miss my cat anymore. I am better off. No hair on the toes.
Grandma big night as Grand Rep to Scotland is Tuesday night. I got to go even though it will kill my legs and feet. They are also celebrating with a huge cake. Uncle Dick and Aunt Judy are flying in for it. Rick graduated from Southern Methodist May 21st. Your Aunt Judy is shiny - she is bones. Hard to believe. She diets. I am gaining after losing 18# since Bob died. I gained back 6# so far and feel better. I was down to bones.
That is no good.
Hope you are well. It is 90 degrees here and sunny so I am in with a sore tooth. I may go to church tonight and sacrifice my legs just to kill time. When you are a young widow Saturday and Sunday are very long and boring and nothing on TV. I may go and get a frozen yogurt. I love it. I drink a Shadlees meal shake at bedtime and go and read in bed. Then around 10 or 11 PM I drink a lite beer.
Well, I am out. Remember I love you. I am proud of you. We need to see each other. It has been too long. I can't come this time of year. Wish I could as I have load of free time.
By being declared by these doctors as disabled I'll probably get Bob's insurance for me free forever. What a break. May be a small pension too. God bless Bob. He looked out for me and Betsy, we loved each other as hard to believe. We both were sick and really understood a lot.
Hope you can read this. Write or call. Let me know how you are doing. I love you dearly. Sand is 21 now. Call anytime. I can never get you. Bob's aunt (in her 80s) still writes me and I am grateful.
I hope I can still sew.
Well, I have rambled long enough. If I could only be in the sun and tolerate heat. I'd love our weather.
I love you.
All my love,
Mom
PS: How is school going and your love life? Keep happy for me.
Sunday, May 29, 1988
Monday, May 16, 1988
May 16, 1988
Dear Betsy,
I just drove a long way to a place to get a huge piece of pie and coffee. I have already eaten. I am trying to gain some weight. I have lost so much and weigh 113# now. I had a rhubarb pie and I am stuffed. This morning I bought cream colored culottes and a white skirt and different colors in it. I am going to send you Aunt Ida's Eastern Star pin. I hope you want it. I felt she would want you to have it. Grandma and Grandpa left for Dallas today to see Ricky graduate from SMU. I think they are selling their condo and bought a smaller one close by. I went out to see them yesterday. I got my hair cut short and it is so perm burned. I have to have weekly protein treatments. At 1st I hated it, but it really makes me look younger. I have to gain weight soon because I am bones. I am on Vit B12 shots every Friday, and really potent iron pills. I feel really good now. My blood count was really down so I have to eat meat, etc.
I hope you are well. Write or tell me when to call you. I still miss Bob but it is getter better since I feel better. My temp is normal again.
So you are going to summer school. Good for you!! What are you taking and how many hours? What hours do you work? I have called but you are never there. I hope you aren't mad at me.
I run a lot of errands. I may go to the store again today and buy a cake mix and make a yummy cake. I want to eat everything all of a sudden.
May 17
Last night I made a carrot cake. I will give some to a friend. I wish you were here. I really miss you. Are you well and happy? What about Kermon? Any one else?
I still have your little graduation picture on my triple dresser. You are so pretty. Grandma is having a big reception for being Grand Representative to Scotland in Ohio on May 31, 1988 at 7:30. I plan to go. I wish you could be here. Aunt Judy and Uncle Dick are flying in. They are having their 50th wedding anniversary cake. Do you have an Eastern Star pin?
Grandma and Grandpa are trading my car in for a minivan and giving me their neat maroon car. I am happy about that. I don't own any. But I drive theirs and pay all cost and insurance.
Well, I want to get this in the mail. Please write or call me. I love you, honey. Take care. I miss you so much. Come see me.
All my love,
Mom
I just drove a long way to a place to get a huge piece of pie and coffee. I have already eaten. I am trying to gain some weight. I have lost so much and weigh 113# now. I had a rhubarb pie and I am stuffed. This morning I bought cream colored culottes and a white skirt and different colors in it. I am going to send you Aunt Ida's Eastern Star pin. I hope you want it. I felt she would want you to have it. Grandma and Grandpa left for Dallas today to see Ricky graduate from SMU. I think they are selling their condo and bought a smaller one close by. I went out to see them yesterday. I got my hair cut short and it is so perm burned. I have to have weekly protein treatments. At 1st I hated it, but it really makes me look younger. I have to gain weight soon because I am bones. I am on Vit B12 shots every Friday, and really potent iron pills. I feel really good now. My blood count was really down so I have to eat meat, etc.
I hope you are well. Write or tell me when to call you. I still miss Bob but it is getter better since I feel better. My temp is normal again.
So you are going to summer school. Good for you!! What are you taking and how many hours? What hours do you work? I have called but you are never there. I hope you aren't mad at me.
I run a lot of errands. I may go to the store again today and buy a cake mix and make a yummy cake. I want to eat everything all of a sudden.
May 17
Last night I made a carrot cake. I will give some to a friend. I wish you were here. I really miss you. Are you well and happy? What about Kermon? Any one else?
I still have your little graduation picture on my triple dresser. You are so pretty. Grandma is having a big reception for being Grand Representative to Scotland in Ohio on May 31, 1988 at 7:30. I plan to go. I wish you could be here. Aunt Judy and Uncle Dick are flying in. They are having their 50th wedding anniversary cake. Do you have an Eastern Star pin?
Grandma and Grandpa are trading my car in for a minivan and giving me their neat maroon car. I am happy about that. I don't own any. But I drive theirs and pay all cost and insurance.
Well, I want to get this in the mail. Please write or call me. I love you, honey. Take care. I miss you so much. Come see me.
All my love,
Mom
Monday, May 9, 1988
May 9, 1988
Dear Betsy,
It was so good to hear from you. I have been worried about you. I called several times and left messages. So you are working just one job. I got Joni and it is good. It is helping. Kirstie bought me a sketching pad. I am also going to sew for Markel. I bought Simplicity Pattern 7783 for her and lots of material. I am feeling better. My new doctor is really caring about me. I have to get him all my records my hemoglobin (iron) is only 9 grams. It should be 12-14 gm and I take iron. I drink 3 cups of coffee a day which keeps me feeling good and moving. I drink a beer at night. It makes my legs red but helps me sleep.
I had to have my 1st tooth pulled 10 days ago. I went alone and even got the laughing gas and Novacaine. It was a terrible experience. He had to section it and put 2 sutures in. They came out yesterday and it is getting better. I also had a filling fixed. Now, I go back to get them cleaned. He wants to do a root canal which would cost $375 so I had it pulled for $30.
I have a new friend but she just has surgery on her knee and can't go anywhere. We talk on the phone. She is 51 and lives on the 8th floor right above me. We go places together. Now, she can't go.
I sell Shaklee products and drink the meal shake @ bedtime. I love it. It is good for me.
I am pre-shrinking Markel's material. It will be a pink dress and panties. I hope I can sew it okay. I have a new Singer sewing machine and haven't used it except to make a blanket for Markel. I am going to make the new baby one also.
I go to the store for myself. I have stopping crying about Bob. I am trying to fix my apartment up. I finally have my pictures up after 16 months of sitting around. I need a new air conditioner. I need room darkening shades to keep the afternoon sun out. I was going to bed late but today I decided it was better to go to bed early and get up early. It is cool in the mornings and hot in the afternoons. I need 12 hours off my feet at night. I don't sleep all that time.
Well, I must close. I miss you. Remember that your mom loves you. Take care. Write!!! When is a good time to call you? I never know when you are there. I'll write soon again. I am glad your Dad was baptized May 1st. It makes me feel good. I love you, honey!!
All my love,
Mom
I LOVE YOU!!!
It was so good to hear from you. I have been worried about you. I called several times and left messages. So you are working just one job. I got Joni and it is good. It is helping. Kirstie bought me a sketching pad. I am also going to sew for Markel. I bought Simplicity Pattern 7783 for her and lots of material. I am feeling better. My new doctor is really caring about me. I have to get him all my records my hemoglobin (iron) is only 9 grams. It should be 12-14 gm and I take iron. I drink 3 cups of coffee a day which keeps me feeling good and moving. I drink a beer at night. It makes my legs red but helps me sleep.
I had to have my 1st tooth pulled 10 days ago. I went alone and even got the laughing gas and Novacaine. It was a terrible experience. He had to section it and put 2 sutures in. They came out yesterday and it is getting better. I also had a filling fixed. Now, I go back to get them cleaned. He wants to do a root canal which would cost $375 so I had it pulled for $30.
I have a new friend but she just has surgery on her knee and can't go anywhere. We talk on the phone. She is 51 and lives on the 8th floor right above me. We go places together. Now, she can't go.
I sell Shaklee products and drink the meal shake @ bedtime. I love it. It is good for me.
I am pre-shrinking Markel's material. It will be a pink dress and panties. I hope I can sew it okay. I have a new Singer sewing machine and haven't used it except to make a blanket for Markel. I am going to make the new baby one also.
I go to the store for myself. I have stopping crying about Bob. I am trying to fix my apartment up. I finally have my pictures up after 16 months of sitting around. I need a new air conditioner. I need room darkening shades to keep the afternoon sun out. I was going to bed late but today I decided it was better to go to bed early and get up early. It is cool in the mornings and hot in the afternoons. I need 12 hours off my feet at night. I don't sleep all that time.
Well, I must close. I miss you. Remember that your mom loves you. Take care. Write!!! When is a good time to call you? I never know when you are there. I'll write soon again. I am glad your Dad was baptized May 1st. It makes me feel good. I love you, honey!!
All my love,
Mom
I LOVE YOU!!!
Monday, May 2, 1988
May 2, 1988
Dear Betsy,
A lot has happened to me since we talked. I was put in the psych ward to try the drug lithium. I was there for a week. When I cam home, the 2nd day my speech slurred badly. My friend had to call the psychiatrist. He had me stop it.
You know I am moving and my Dad and mom are paying $200 of my rent. I lived here before on Heatherdowns. Yesterday the church was moving me and I drew a blank. I didn't know where it was. I am sure I had another seizure. I am an epileptic. I am living at my new apartment with a bed and 2 chairs. I had to go and get coffee this morning.
I am going to church today. On the psych ward they lock your things up. I made some friends. We all went to see "Short Circuit 2". Cute movie. I have to get out more. I learned that. This is a hard time of year because it is so hot.
I am going back to the old apartment to get some things. I had to get more food. It is hot but I think I'll go and get coffee. My new phone is … I miss you. Are you okay? I started reading "Dr. Fires." I went to Mormon church (everyone was shocked). My hair is so dry and a mess. I don't know what to do with it. Next Saturday the church is going to move everything. Tomorrow I am going to the old apartment to bring things. I'll go early in the morning.
So how are you doing? I hope okay. I would love to see you. When I called Kirstie to tell her I was going on the psych ward, she said, "No big deal mom." I was upset.
I got lots of classes especially on depression. I did very well. I made friends. You have to eat together and go and get your medicines. Everyone was good about my legs. I made a craft too. This is the 1st book I have been able to read in ages. Grandma and Grandpa are bringing me a black and white TV. I've been out all day. It is hot. I'll go out for breakfast tomorrow. At least I am close to lots of things. That is good.
I am going to have brown (2) venetian blinds in my living room window - should be nice. Grandpa supposed to put them up. They are in the process of moving to a one story condo. It is brand new and nice.
Everything we moved got drenched. I have never seen it rain that hard and I was driving alone and couldn't see. Made it! My bed was drenched. The Bishop brought me a mattress I could sleep.
When I got to the hospital, I hit bottom. I cried the 1st day and almost didn't stay. I missed Bob and I'm glad I decided to get help. I have a good psychiatrist (Dr. Torsekar). You'd like him. I am on medicine for depression.
The patients helped each other. I learned I wouldn't go hungry. I didin't mind it but was glad to come home.
Well, I am out of news. Hope you are well and happy. Take care.
All my love,
mom
A lot has happened to me since we talked. I was put in the psych ward to try the drug lithium. I was there for a week. When I cam home, the 2nd day my speech slurred badly. My friend had to call the psychiatrist. He had me stop it.
You know I am moving and my Dad and mom are paying $200 of my rent. I lived here before on Heatherdowns. Yesterday the church was moving me and I drew a blank. I didn't know where it was. I am sure I had another seizure. I am an epileptic. I am living at my new apartment with a bed and 2 chairs. I had to go and get coffee this morning.
I am going to church today. On the psych ward they lock your things up. I made some friends. We all went to see "Short Circuit 2". Cute movie. I have to get out more. I learned that. This is a hard time of year because it is so hot.
I am going back to the old apartment to get some things. I had to get more food. It is hot but I think I'll go and get coffee. My new phone is … I miss you. Are you okay? I started reading "Dr. Fires." I went to Mormon church (everyone was shocked). My hair is so dry and a mess. I don't know what to do with it. Next Saturday the church is going to move everything. Tomorrow I am going to the old apartment to bring things. I'll go early in the morning.
So how are you doing? I hope okay. I would love to see you. When I called Kirstie to tell her I was going on the psych ward, she said, "No big deal mom." I was upset.
I got lots of classes especially on depression. I did very well. I made friends. You have to eat together and go and get your medicines. Everyone was good about my legs. I made a craft too. This is the 1st book I have been able to read in ages. Grandma and Grandpa are bringing me a black and white TV. I've been out all day. It is hot. I'll go out for breakfast tomorrow. At least I am close to lots of things. That is good.
I am going to have brown (2) venetian blinds in my living room window - should be nice. Grandpa supposed to put them up. They are in the process of moving to a one story condo. It is brand new and nice.
Everything we moved got drenched. I have never seen it rain that hard and I was driving alone and couldn't see. Made it! My bed was drenched. The Bishop brought me a mattress I could sleep.
When I got to the hospital, I hit bottom. I cried the 1st day and almost didn't stay. I missed Bob and I'm glad I decided to get help. I have a good psychiatrist (Dr. Torsekar). You'd like him. I am on medicine for depression.
The patients helped each other. I learned I wouldn't go hungry. I didin't mind it but was glad to come home.
Well, I am out of news. Hope you are well and happy. Take care.
All my love,
mom
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