This is my mother. She left me when I was just 14 years old. I saw her a few times from teenage through the typical college years (although I didn’t have typical college years) and then she passed away before I married or had children. She was a wonderful woman that I know I would talk to her often if she were alive, but I really never got the chance.

The most current entries are things I would tell her and only her ... because they aren’t meant to be heard, just vented (if she were alive). The majority of this blog are letters she wrote to me (and a few to my sisters) during the years that we were apart.

Friday, April 26, 1985

April 26, 1985

Dear Betsy,
When I opened my door this morning I was thrilled to find a package from you.  I love the baby dolls and gown and robe, too.  I go to the doctor this afternoon but have some errands.  It is 75 degrees out better than 89 like last week.  It was so nice and thought of you to get some pretty things for me.  I really love them.  You know Grandma never said a word about my bikinis I bought when you were here last June.  When are you going to come again?  We had so much fun.  How is work going?  Do you keep busy?  How is your love life?  Aunt Ida is planning to come over today but she had better hurry.  Bob went to the doctor also.  He should be back soon.
We got bananas and strawberries yesterday and they were sure good on my cereal.  Yummy.  I have gained weight.  I needed it.  I was skinny.  I want to go swimming to get some exercise. I may go soon.  My hair is really long and think.  I need a head band for it to keep it out of my face.  It is wavy and coarse - hard to handle but I get too cold with short hair.  Plus Bob doesn't like short hair.  Is your hair long?  It is so pretty.
I loved the Easter card and put it on the TV for all to see.  Grandpa goes to the special neurologist Monday for his pain.  He is miserable with it.
I have errands to run before my doctor's appointment.  Aunt Ida was just here.  She took a jump suit Sandy bought and changed her mind.
This is close to the end of the month and we are poor.  I will stop and get some headbands and coffee (free) at Churchill's.  I am having trouble sleeping lately.
It is now 80 degrees and I went to Ponderosa for a big salad and fruit.  It was very good.  I hope we don't have a long hot summer.  Last night was cool and good for sleeping.  Did I tell you I lost a small diamond in my engagement ring?  It is replacable free.  I miss wearing it.
Well, I will close.  Remember I love you.  Thank you for the presents.

All my love,
Mom

Wednesday, April 17, 1985

April 17, 1985

Dear Betsy,
Well, I wrote Kirstie a little while ago, and now I am at the Pancake house for coffee and wanted to write you.  It was such nice weather yesterday.  We went to the bank early and out for breakfast.  I then got 3 pair of new thongs.  It was the 1st Bob had been out.  Then we went to Bill Knapps for supper and I had my chef salad and ice tea.  Then we got ice cream.
It was so nice and warm out and today is chilly.  Your grandparents have colds.  I made appy cake tonight and it should be good.  I love it.  I am gaining weight but I need it.
I think Sandy had a good time.  She was really busy etc.  She has been invited to a Prom here and I hope she can make it.  When are you got to get vacation and visit me and Bob.  We'd love to have you.  We had such a nice visit last June.  I will always remember it.  Bob and I will be married for over a year June 23.  Hard to believe.  I go to the Mormon church now and they are good to me.
How is your college coming along?  How many hours do you take?  Was it English?  How is work?  How is the boy friend situation?  What about David?  Do you still date him?  Are you still friends?  Sandy has a day of snow while she was here.  Really rare.  I lost a diamond out of my wedding band but it is guaranteed so Bob will have to return it for repair.
My heels are peeling and look aweful.  I have such ugly feet.  I was on them too much yesterday.  Tomorrow I have to be there.  They are installing an intercome and buzzer system in each apartment.  That should be fun.  I will make oatmeal for breakfast.  I am happy for it.  Well, I miss you.  Remember, I love you dearly.

All my love,
Mom