Dear Betsy,
I am lonely today and heard my song "You Light Up My Life" on the radio. I cried. I miss you so much. Sandy called collect from Ogden yesterday afternoon. She sounds happy. Mark leaves for San Diego on Saturday and she will soon be in Virginia. Is she planning on working?
Bob came over for breakfast. I fixed some sausage, 2 poached eggs and 2 pieces banana bread. I forgot to give him the sausage. That wasn't too brilliant. I'll heat it up later.
I played the violin for the past 2 days. I am really rusty. I'll probably keep trying through.
I have 3 loads of laundry to do. I dread the thought. It is so hot in there. It makes my feet and legs a mess. I am still getting light headed. My BP is low. I do eat well. I have gained up to 125#.
My curly hair has grown and I don't know what to do. It looks a mess. I had it thinned and that helped. I could let it grow again and have it look a mess for awhile. I could get it cut really short and permed a curly perm. It would be easy to care for.
I went to church on Easter Eve and for Easter. It was so pretty. I had never been to a church like that. I was getting up at 6 or 7 AM now. I wake up early but I just lay in bed. I know I am low on potassium. I take a lot a day.
Bob wants me to come back to him forever. I really don't know what I want. I love him very much and he is good times. He even bought a new queen bed. We each had a twin since we moved here 1 1/2 years ago. I do miss him a lot. I also like my little apartment and privacy so I am confused. I read a lot and it passes time. Why don't you call me some morning before 8 AM (when it gets expensive) I'll hear the phone. I never know when to call you. I miss our talks. I am grateful for your letters and memories. It is so sad I had to get so sick so fast. I feel I lost you and failed you and I can't share your joys and sorrows. I love you very much. I hope you know that. I was so thrilled to have you. You were a wonderful joy. I had you all day every day up those mountains. I used to rock you for so long in my rocker. When Sandy was born I still rocked you too. Then when I fed Sandy you would feed your doll in your little rocker. Those were the good ole days.
I took Bob Tuesday to get groceries. We each spent $35. It sure adds up fast. My cat needed litter and food. Yesterday, I spent $10 more. I had to get all the groceries.
I took a Family Circle cancer risk. That is terrible. I eat well too. I drink more than 2 cups of coffee every day. Nurses love coffee.
My little cat, Kelly is a lot of company. She is so pretty and lovable. She sits in the window a lot. Everyone sees her.
Well, I will close now. You are always in my thoughts and prayers. Remember, I love you honey.
All my love,
Mom
Thursday, April 23, 1987
Sunday, April 19, 1987
April 19, 1987
Dear Betsy,
Thank you so much for writing to me. I really appreciate it. Sounds like everything is going well for you. So you have a great career. I am proud of you. I am glad you are going to VA. I wish we were living closer. I miss you so much.
I went to church at 8 AM then to McDonalds for a sausage biscuit and coffee. It was a beautiful Easter service and cool in the AM. It is going up to 75 degrees today and that is too warm for my legs and feet.
I have to get a fuse for my car so I can have the air conditioning. It is a must for me.
I can't get Bob on the phone . He must have stayed up all night. I must have called 50 times. It is 1 PM now. He gave me a beautiful diamond gold 5 year anniversary ring. It is of 5 diamonds and really very pretty. We will have been married 5 years May 4th. Hard to believe.
This past week I got up 2 mornings and passed out cold. I cut my toes. Banged my knee and gave myself a black cheek bone. So I started setting breakfast up before I went to be but I still get sick. Last Wednesday after 2 days of this I saw the doctor @ 3 PM and my BP was 70/46. He drew blood, etc. I am better now but I sure got low BP. I'll tell you I was scared - afraid to move. My lungs are improving but I cough a lot.
Today Aunt Ida, Grandma and Grandpa went out for a fancy meal. I was given a last minute invitation and said it would be too warm which is true. Know she is mad and pouting. The Eastern Stars have gone to her head. They are even going to Scotland this summer. She is dragging my dad to his grave. She won't do it to me.
Do you know that I love hot peppers, taco salads and Italian food, etc. My stomach never takes it.
My cat Kelly is fine. She only weighs 5# and is so cute. I really love her. You'd love her but she would probably make you wheeze. She is a Siamese.
I haven't heard from Sandy. I hope she is doing good. Did you like Mark? I am glad you and Kirstie could go. It really depressed me the day she got married. I must have cried all day. This disease is really hard to live with. I only wish I were well and not hurt all the time. I have faith and hope and I know God can do miracles. No doctor knows what to do. This disease sure shattered my life and I have lost lots of things but most of all I didn't have my own children. My heart is upset about that. I guess holidays do this to me. Please forgive and understand. I do love you so very much. I remember when you were born, etc.
I will close now. Remember I love you so much and miss you. Give Kirstie my love. Write me soon or call.
All my love,
Mom
Thank you so much for writing to me. I really appreciate it. Sounds like everything is going well for you. So you have a great career. I am proud of you. I am glad you are going to VA. I wish we were living closer. I miss you so much.
I went to church at 8 AM then to McDonalds for a sausage biscuit and coffee. It was a beautiful Easter service and cool in the AM. It is going up to 75 degrees today and that is too warm for my legs and feet.
I have to get a fuse for my car so I can have the air conditioning. It is a must for me.
I can't get Bob on the phone . He must have stayed up all night. I must have called 50 times. It is 1 PM now. He gave me a beautiful diamond gold 5 year anniversary ring. It is of 5 diamonds and really very pretty. We will have been married 5 years May 4th. Hard to believe.
This past week I got up 2 mornings and passed out cold. I cut my toes. Banged my knee and gave myself a black cheek bone. So I started setting breakfast up before I went to be but I still get sick. Last Wednesday after 2 days of this I saw the doctor @ 3 PM and my BP was 70/46. He drew blood, etc. I am better now but I sure got low BP. I'll tell you I was scared - afraid to move. My lungs are improving but I cough a lot.
Today Aunt Ida, Grandma and Grandpa went out for a fancy meal. I was given a last minute invitation and said it would be too warm which is true. Know she is mad and pouting. The Eastern Stars have gone to her head. They are even going to Scotland this summer. She is dragging my dad to his grave. She won't do it to me.
Do you know that I love hot peppers, taco salads and Italian food, etc. My stomach never takes it.
My cat Kelly is fine. She only weighs 5# and is so cute. I really love her. You'd love her but she would probably make you wheeze. She is a Siamese.
I haven't heard from Sandy. I hope she is doing good. Did you like Mark? I am glad you and Kirstie could go. It really depressed me the day she got married. I must have cried all day. This disease is really hard to live with. I only wish I were well and not hurt all the time. I have faith and hope and I know God can do miracles. No doctor knows what to do. This disease sure shattered my life and I have lost lots of things but most of all I didn't have my own children. My heart is upset about that. I guess holidays do this to me. Please forgive and understand. I do love you so very much. I remember when you were born, etc.
I will close now. Remember I love you so much and miss you. Give Kirstie my love. Write me soon or call.
All my love,
Mom
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