This is my mother. She left me when I was just 14 years old. I saw her a few times from teenage through the typical college years (although I didn’t have typical college years) and then she passed away before I married or had children. She was a wonderful woman that I know I would talk to her often if she were alive, but I really never got the chance.

The most current entries are things I would tell her and only her ... because they aren’t meant to be heard, just vented (if she were alive). The majority of this blog are letters she wrote to me (and a few to my sisters) during the years that we were apart.

Friday, March 20, 1987

March 20, 1987

Dear Betsy,

I am sorry I haven't called you for your birthday.  I am very sick and with a bad chest cold and asthma.  I am really wheezing.  The doctor put me on choleydol 200 mgm 3x a day and it helps.  I cough all the time, etc.  I have never had asthma before.  Grandpa has it also.  I really feel for you.  I am glad you are better though.  You are had asthma bad when you were little.
I got Sandy's wedding invitation yesterday.  I am upset because she didn't say Judith E. Thompson which is my legal name.  Bob is upset also.  I imagine your Dad and Alison are also.  I don't know why she did it that way.
Did you get your birthday present yet?  I hope so.  Does it fit?  I don't know when to call you. When is a good time?
Kelly is fine.  She is so cute.  I really love her.  She sleeps by me and is my baby.  She is a tiny pretty Siamese cat.  She probably doesn't help my asthma.
I would like to just lay down and sleep away this misery but I won't.  I went to bed at 8 PM last night because I was so sick.  I had 101 fever, etc.  I haven't been sick in 5 years.
I don't know if I can make it to Salt Lake with my legs and feet.  I will probably be very miserable.  My back is bad again.  I have to see the back doctor March 31.  I will have to have to x-rays over again.  It has been 11 years since I have had trouble.  I probably need a back brace or spinal fusion operation.  It is perfect these days I understand.
Well, I will close.  Write me soon.  I love you so much.

All my love,
Mom

Friday, March 13, 1987

March 13, 1987

Dear Betsy,

Your birthday is a good day to put into words the feelings too seldom expressed.  Like how special you are, how much you are loved, how you're wished all life's brightest and best …
It is so wonderful having a daughter like you who has such a dear, thoughtful way, and your birthday's a good day to put into words all the joy you put into each day.

Happy Birthday with love,

All my Love,
I love you,
Mom

PS:  I hope and pray that you know how very much I love you.  I still remember all about you as a precious baby.  Now, you are 21 and grown up.  Always remember that your mom will love you forever.

Wednesday, March 4, 1987

March 4, 1987

Dear Betsy,
Well, here is March.  I understand you called Sandy last night.  She is so excited about getting married.  I am so happy for her.  I called her at 6:00 her time this morning.  Of course I woke her up.  I am going to Provo on April 2nd from Detroit and l will leave April 5th.  I hope you and Kirstie go.  I want to see you.  How are you?  Betsy, I go to bed early now and up at 6 am. So call me anytime before 8 am.  It is cheap then.  I am going to wear a powder blue dress with white in it.  I hope you like it.
I am at MCO Clinic and hospital.  I saw Dr. Hageman, my cardiovascular doctor.  He took my left big toe nail off and cut the right one way down.  They die with fungus because of the poor circulation.  I fell on my left knee three months ago and it has a  bump on it.  He thought it was a cyst and tried to aspirate it.  I had a little blood but no fluid.  I rode an exercise bike last night 20 miles for 5 minutes.  My heart beat was so fast and my legs about doubled over.  I am out of shape.  He said to do it 10 miles / 5 minutes for a month and then go to 20 / 5 minutes.  Plus I should swim a lot.  I wonder where I can swim cheap.  Got any ideas?  I am writing this while waiting for Bob.  He has real problems.  His only leg is dying and he will probably do surgery will is they can't do a by-pass.  The question is can he survive a by-pass?
he is at least a 6 hour one and of the aorta and renal arteries.  He is having more tests now plus x-rays and blood work to determine if his heart can take it.  He is in a catch 22 and the prognosis is bad.
I have to stand by him no matter what.  We go out together and he eats in my apartment.  He is depressed.  His Dad died at 44 with CA of rectum.  He even died of CA breat and his mom had CA breast.  Now has has severe rectal pain and blood.  I am worried.
I am home now and about to leave for church for Ash Wednesday services.  Bob is sleeping.
I have yours and Kirstie's birthday presents and will try and mail them this week.  I hope they fit and you like them.
Take care of yourself.  Write or call.  I love you dearly and miss you.  See you soon.

All my love,
Mom