This is my mother. She left me when I was just 14 years old. I saw her a few times from teenage through the typical college years (although I didn’t have typical college years) and then she passed away before I married or had children. She was a wonderful woman that I know I would talk to her often if she were alive, but I really never got the chance.

The most current entries are things I would tell her and only her ... because they aren’t meant to be heard, just vented (if she were alive). The majority of this blog are letters she wrote to me (and a few to my sisters) during the years that we were apart.

Sunday, July 19, 1981

July 19, 1981

Dear Sandy,

Just a short note on a borrowed typewriter to let you know that I love you.  I went with the Handicapped Society last night to Southwich from 7-10 pm.  I have to use gloves or my hands get cut.  I also get burned on the burners.  I don't use the dishwasher for just my dishes so I do them after a meal.  A couple of friends gave me paper plates and cups to help.  I still use my mugs all the time.  I also get to go to the mall today because I was bored and nervous.  It was packed because of a sidewalk sale.  I returned my TABU and got a larger one for the 2 small ones.  The small ones turned me brown but the newer one doesn't.  It was the same price.  I love that smell.  I use all my colognes.  I wash up before bed.  Tonight I am going to go to bed by midnight and get up about 5:30 am because it is cooler then and eat my breakfast here and make the bed and do the dishes and pick up the clutter and then go to Sourdough Charlies.  I can get all the coffee and Sanka I want for a dime from 6:30 - 8:00 am and it is good and they will let me read as long as I want.  Remember all the times we went and all the times you got me coffee.  Such good memories.  I am really nervous lately.  I don't know why.  I can't sleep either.  Grandma is still sick and her stomach hurts.  Dr. Jones says it is colitis.  I am reading "The Wildest Heart" by Rose Mary Rogers.  I really like it.  I am almost done with "Chesapeake."  Did you see the movie "The Other Side of the Mountain 2" this past week?  It was good.  I am knitting also and trying to sew but it is hard to do.  I am glad you are happy.  I surely do miss you and your company.  It is lonely here and quiet.  Time drags.  The sun has been in for 2 days and my feet are better.  Remember you can come here anytime.  I want you.  Patti want you for babysitting.  Do you save your money?  I have none at the present time.  Someone can come and get you anytime you want.  I hope Betsy is okay.  Is Shirley having fun?  Are you in Rainbow there?  Do you hear form Nancy Reed?  Millie Edwards is finally back in town as of yesterday.  We are good friends.  I also have a good friend named Joyce Neal who was a patient at MCO that I took care of.  She does a lot for me.  She is planning on taking me to the Franklin Park Mall tomorrow night and we are sting at the York Steak House there also.  She is treating since I am so poor.  She brought me potatoes, corn and onions the other day.  She brings her daughter, Jackie, who is 12 and very mature.  A really nice girl.  Charlotte and Ron were on a trip in Kentucky an were hit by a car and lost their car but no one was hurt.  Lori is now married and happy.  Dad put the mill and mixer down the basement because I can not handle them.  I can't lift with my hands anything heavy so I can't use heavy bowls or pans.  I don't get the newspaper unless Dad brings it after he reads it.  Do you ever go to church there?  I go to the Lutheran most of the time if it is cool outside.  Judy Pelet gave me Joni book 2 to read but she is acting strange since I am back.  She and Audrey seem to think God can make me well and not to see a psychiatrist or take any pills for the head.  It is okay to take them for anything else.  I don't agree with them.  I am really nervous inside. This is very hard to accept being handicapped with my hand now also.  I feel so helpless and yet I try to do everything I can for myself.  I may get a different apartment that has better heating and cooling for my feet.  Winter will hurt them as it did last year.  I can't afford any new and none are available before Sept.  The rent here is good for what I have.  I should offer an ad for someone to live with me to keep me company and help with the vacuuming.  I want a new cleaner and typewriter.  I want to sell the violin since I won't be able to play with my hands.  It is worse than when you saw it last.  Without the brace it drops.  I talked to Lois at the Health Food Store twice lately and she really liked you.  She helps me.  I got honey, sunflower seeds, yogurt, juice, peanut butter, carob powder for milk, chewable vit C like you like.  I had coupons for most of them.  I got 7 grain bread also.  Well, I must close and soak my sore bottom in the tub and read my book.  I will write Kirstie tonight.  Plese write me soon.  I miss your letters.  Please!  Remember I love you and miss you.

All my love for you,

Mommykins

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