This is my mother. She left me when I was just 14 years old. I saw her a few times from teenage through the typical college years (although I didn’t have typical college years) and then she passed away before I married or had children. She was a wonderful woman that I know I would talk to her often if she were alive, but I really never got the chance.

The most current entries are things I would tell her and only her ... because they aren’t meant to be heard, just vented (if she were alive). The majority of this blog are letters she wrote to me (and a few to my sisters) during the years that we were apart.

Saturday, December 12, 1987

December 12, 1987

Dear Betsy,
I got your letter yesterday.  So you and Kermon are through.  I hope your new place is nice.  I need your address and phone number.  Where shall I send your and Kirstie's Christmas presents?  I have no idea where Kirstie lives.  I need to write her and I have Christmas cards for you both.
Betsy, I have been really sick.  My ulcer is very bad and I have been too sick to do anything.  The doctor put me on Zantac and Carafate.  I was so weak.  I am better today but I am on a very bland diet and I can't eat much at one time.  Not even a salad.  I don't miss it because I know how sick it would make me.
I drink antacid every 2 hours while I am awake.  I had a lot of pain and vomiting of pure acid. These 2 medicines are so helpful.  Two days ago I could do nothing and so weak.  I have to take iron again.  I have lost a few pounds.  I think that is an improvement.  I was up to 127# and all my belly.
What started the ulcer up again was the new back pills like Motrin and those.  It is disalsid and isn't supposed to cause stomach problems.  I have to take it so I have to keep the ulcer under control.  I have had three bad previous ones that bleed so I know I can't eat chill or taco salad anymore.
I get Markel a darling cloth doll for ages up to 2 years.  It is cute and colorful.  Next year will be lots of fun buying for her.  What did you get her?  She is so young for much.  My parents got her a teddy bear which says "My First Teddy."
Our weather is cold and windy now.  This time of year I get depressed.  I can't go anywhere and I miss parties, dancing, etc.  I go to bed most nights at 7 pm and stay in bed until 7 am.  What a life?  I can't even shop at the mall.  I can't walk much and they are all so crowded.  I don't even have a Christmas tree.
I wish I could see you for Christmas.  I miss you so much.  Thanks again for the pictures.  You are so pretty and beautiful.  How is the asthma?  I hope better.  You know, I pray for you every night.  I really do love you.
My parents are coming tomorrow and bringing a few groceries.  I had them get a box of cards for Christmas.  I am going to wrap all the presents.  Then they have to be boxed.
Bob gave me a box with 35 petit fours and they are dark chocolate except for 7 which are white and spell Grandma.  Really pretty.  He comes to see me but he is grumpy most of the time.  His BP is high.  I know he doesn't feel well.  He wants me to take him places to eat, etc.
Well, I hope and pray you are well and happy.  Please write me soon.  I miss you.  Remember, Betsy, honey, I love you very much.

All my love,
Mom

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