This is my mother. She left me when I was just 14 years old. I saw her a few times from teenage through the typical college years (although I didn’t have typical college years) and then she passed away before I married or had children. She was a wonderful woman that I know I would talk to her often if she were alive, but I really never got the chance.
The most current entries are things I would tell her and only her ... because they aren’t meant to be heard, just vented (if she were alive). The majority of this blog are letters she wrote to me (and a few to my sisters) during the years that we were apart.
Sunday, May 16, 1982
May 16, 1982
My Dearest Betsy,
I have been wanting to write you for the past two weeks but have been so busy. I was so happy to talk to you last Sunday on Mother's Day. Thank you so much for calling me. Before I write more I want to tell you how very much you mean to me and how much I dearly love and adore you. I do miss you but I am glad you are happy and busy. I am so proud of you. I can hardly wait until September. What date have you set? What is your theme and colors? What can I do to help plan. Remember planning in California? I also want you to know I am the happiest woman in the world. I have found happiness at long last and I love the life I live. I still have the "freak feet and legs" that hurt all the time, but there is more to life than pain. I smile all the time and laugh. I weigh 118-120# and feel good all over. I just had to tell you. I think of you so much and I will be there in September for sure.
The weather should be good.
Aunt Ida just had a four day trip to the World's Fair and got home Thursday. She had a good time. Sandy is fine and going to school. She goes weekly to the psychologist.
I go to church every Sunday. Two Sunday's ago I tripped on a 1/4" step raised concrete and tore my left big toe wide open on the bottom. Blood went everywhere and I had to go to the emergency room for treatment. I also broke the toe.
How are you feeling? I hope better. Did the stomach cramps go away? How is the asthma doing? Do you still have a boy friend? Are you driving yet? I go out mornings and evenings when possible because me feet and legs can't take the heat. I shop early or late. I am know as "The Sun Down Kid" It is 85 degrees here. I had to buy a $500 air conditioner this past week.
Monday
I have been thinking of your installation. I would like to present you with your gavel. I have mine and Grandma used it when she was Worth Matron. So I would like you to have mine if you want. I would be honored if you would accept my gavel. This special day of yours will be very special for me also. Please give me all the details and the date for sure. I will need a motel close by for a couple of days. I am so anxious to come and see you. I wish you could come visit me this summer. I am saving my money for the September trip. I hope the weather is really good. It should be ideal. It is a good time for your installation.
Please think about the gavel. I could give you another one also if you didn't want the one I used.
It is hot here but pretty. I even went to the cemetery last Sunday and saw the graves of all our relatives. I miss my Grandpa Deakin. He was a good man. Do you still hear from Ulrich in Germany?
Tomorrow I plan to go to a Bible study at church. I go out and eat my breakfast brunch when I get home. I took Sandy to Dr. Adler today at 9:30. Then I took her to school and then I came home and fixed breakfast. Now I am at my doctors and have to wait so I hope I can finish this and get it mailed.
I am letting my hair grow long again. It is already thick.
Wednesday
Well, time goes quickly and things change. I talked with you last night and told you I got married. I am happy. I will have pictures made for you. Bob is really nice. He lived across the hall from me in this apartment building. Now I will have to move across the hall. My name is Mrs. Judith Thompson. You can still send mail to the old address and name.
I have to send Sandy home to you all because she needs you. I love her so much but I feel she needs more supervision and her sisters. She will probably never forgive me. I pray she does and knows I did it for her own good. She is still very sick and takes lots of medicine. Tell her I love her for me. I have cried all morning today. I miss you so much.
Bob will be 50 years old in July. He is really nice. He had his left leg taken off a year ago from bad circulation. He uses a wheel chair but we go everywhere possible. He truly loves me and I love him. I never thought I would or could love again. We have no money but that isn't everything plus we live in a tiny apartment. I have so many things that won't even fit in his (our) place. I have lots to keep me busy now. I have to stay in the day because it gets too hot outside. We did buy an air conditioner for the apartment and it helps except we should have another for our bedroom.
My new phone number is …
Address: 6818 Oakfield Drive #101
Judy Dibble sent this stationary 2 years ago and I am writing to you with it for the first time.
Bob was married at age 41 and divorced 2 years ago. He is 6'4" tall. He is losing his hair. He is good to me, Betsy. I need love and I love him. I am happy. I miss you so much. I wish we could be closer. Could you write me more? I miss your letters. I didn't tell anyone I was getting married. We were married in Bob's church on May 4. Bob's friend Steve and his wife and Sandy were there and the Pastor. Steve bought beautiful flowers - corsage for Sandy and his wife and carnations for Steve and Bob. I had a beautiful bouquet of white carnations and a lovely purple orchid. We have gold wedding bands. I hope you are happy for me. I was so lonely. Now, the time flies for us. He is disabled and handicapped also so we are poor and he and I are here together most of the time.
So you are going to the Mormon church. So is Sandy. I am glad. I go every week.
I am so thrilled you want me to present you with your gavel (mine). I'll have it made up with your name, etc. Send me your Assembly # and etc because I'll put it on it also. I am so excited. You are fulfilling my dreams. I have a daughter to be proud of. You light up my life!!!
It just poured rain and now the sun is out. I think we'll take Sandy out for salad bar supper tonight and then pack. I have to yell her yet. She is happy since she was doing things wrong. She needs psychiatric help. Please don't tell her ever that she is fat. She thinks she is. She looks better past two days. She went to mutual last night and had a good time. I hope she doesn't hate her own mother. If I didn't love her, I wouldn't send her. She says she hates her dad and Alison. She said she would run away if I sent her to her dad. I pray all works out. I miss her already. She just came home from school with loads of homework.
Well, I had better close and get cleaned up. Bob is taking a nap. I hope you stay happy and well. I haven't been in the wheel chair for weeks. I rest my legs on footstools or the bed. I have lots of energy and I eat good. You can be proud of me. Remember I love you dearly. Let me help you plan your installation, theme, colors, etc. I love lavender and baby blue. I will mark September 25th as the big, BIG DAY!! We will be there somehow.
Get the address and phone number of that Holiday Inn by your lodge. It would be close.
Remember I am your one and only mom and I love you dearly. I only wish I had my health so I could be with you more. Take care, honey and write me soon.
All my love to a beautiful daughter,
Your mom
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