March 31, 1990 Sally

Dear Sally,

So  much is happening which isn't all good (What a way to start a letter)!  We have had 2 custody hearings and another April 6.  Sandy has to testify then.  She went back to school full time and stopped Mellaul.  Now she called today 2 x from school to say she didn't feel well and wanted to come home.  I didn't let her as she always pulls this.  She is trying out for softball and track.  I think she is still sick.  She refuses to live with Garry and Alison but she misses the girls.  I called Kirstie on her birthday.  She sounds so sad.  Betsy sounds great.  I miss them.  Sandy is lazy and she yells so much at me.  I am very lonely but trying to keep busy with church and all.  Garry, Alison and the girls all went to Oakton, VA Ward on Sunday for all meetings.  He is making himself look so good.  He had his attorney question me for 2 straight hours.  He is trying to say I am financially physically and mentally incompetent.  He will probably get custody and cost thousands of dollars and I will pay all my life.  The psych for Sandy wrote a letter to the court on Garry's behalf saying I should have Sandy until the summer, then live with Garry forever.  I was furious.  You can tell who pays his bill.  We are going to a new psych for adolescent tomorrow for Sandy and I pray he helps her and us.  Otherwise I will lose Sandy to Garry.  He moved into his big new apartment.  Sandy's psych doctor said I could not provide for her.  I will get food from food truck (welfare LDS) tomorrow.  The Bishop wants me to practice my violin and play in Sacrament meeting.  Relief Society lesson is this Saturday at 9:30.  I plan to go.  Sandy goes to Mutual every Tuesday night and plays volleyball.  She has lots of friends.  The minister that married me and who was to be a character witness for me died March 23 suddenly.  He absolutely despised Garry. I feel the loneliness of divorce now.  Not the anger, hurt as much as missing someone to love. Do you still want Sandy part of the summer?  Betsy is going to CA also so she says.  She goes, goes, goes!  Well, I am out of room.  I miss not hearing from you.  The girls don't write and it hurts.  Garry gets all credit after I raised them to young ladies.  I hope you are all well and hopefully happy.  Thank Heavenly Father for your beautiful family.  I love you all so much.  Write soon.  All my love,

Judy