This is my mother. She left me when I was just 14 years old. I saw her a few times from teenage through the typical college years (although I didn’t have typical college years) and then she passed away before I married or had children. She was a wonderful woman that I know I would talk to her often if she were alive, but I really never got the chance.

The most current entries are things I would tell her and only her ... because they aren’t meant to be heard, just vented (if she were alive). The majority of this blog are letters she wrote to me (and a few to my sisters) during the years that we were apart.

Sunday, April 19, 1987

April 19, 1987

Dear Betsy,
Thank you so much for writing to me.  I really appreciate it.  Sounds like everything is going well for you.  So you have a great career.  I am proud of you.  I am glad you are going to VA.  I wish we were living closer.  I miss you so much.
I went to church at 8 AM then to McDonalds for a sausage biscuit and coffee.  It was a beautiful Easter service and cool in the AM.  It is going up to 75 degrees today and that is too warm for my legs and feet.
I have to get a fuse for my car so I can have the air conditioning.  It is a must for me.
I can't get Bob on the phone .  He must have stayed up all night.  I must have called 50 times.  It is 1 PM now.  He gave me a beautiful diamond gold 5 year anniversary ring.  It is of 5 diamonds and really very pretty.  We will have been married 5 years May 4th.  Hard to believe.
This past week I got up 2 mornings and passed out cold.  I cut my toes.  Banged my knee and gave myself a black cheek bone.  So I started setting breakfast up before I went to be but I still get sick.  Last Wednesday after 2 days of this I saw the doctor @ 3 PM and my BP was 70/46.  He drew blood, etc.  I am better now but I sure got low BP.  I'll tell you I was scared - afraid to move.  My lungs are improving but I cough a lot.
Today Aunt Ida, Grandma and Grandpa went out for a fancy meal.  I was given a last minute invitation and said it would be too warm which is true.  Know she is mad and pouting.  The Eastern Stars have gone to her head.  They are even going to Scotland this summer.  She is dragging my dad to his grave.  She won't do it to me.
Do you know that I love hot peppers, taco salads and Italian food, etc.  My stomach never takes it.
My cat Kelly is fine.  She only weighs 5# and is so cute.  I really love her.  You'd love her but she would probably make you wheeze.  She is a Siamese.
I haven't heard from Sandy.  I hope she is doing good.  Did you like Mark?  I am glad you and Kirstie could go.  It really depressed me the day she got married.  I must have cried all day.  This disease is really hard to live with.  I only wish I were well and not hurt all the time.  I have faith and hope and I know God can do miracles.  No doctor knows what to do.  This disease sure shattered my life and I have lost lots of things but most of all I didn't have my own children.  My heart is upset about that.  I guess holidays do this to me.  Please forgive and understand.  I do love you so very much.  I remember when you were born, etc.
I will close now.  Remember I love you so much and miss you.  Give Kirstie my love.  Write me soon or call.

All my love,
Mom
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